Disabled veterans -- England -- Fiction; People with disabilities -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- England -- Fiction
"If you don't look more cheerful, Major, I shall cry. I've never done
so yet, but I'm sure I've got it in me."
I stretched out my hand. She took it, and, still holding it, seated
herself on a footstool close to my chair.
"There are such a lot of things that occur to me," I said. "Things that
your poor mother, if she were alive, would be more fitted to touch on
than myself."
"Such as--"
She knelt by me and gave me both her hands. It was a pretty way she
had. She had begun it soon after her head overtopped mine in my eternal
wheelbarrow. There was a little mockery in her eyes.
"Well--" said I. "You know what marriage means. There is the question
of children."
She broke into frank laughter.
"My darling Majy--" That is the penalty one pays for admitting
irresponsible modern young people into one's intimacy. They miscall one
abominably. I thought she had outgrown this childish, though
affectionate appellation of disrespect. "My darling Majy!" she said.
"Children! How many do you think I'm going to have?"
I was taken aback. There was this pure, proud, laughing young face a
foot away from me. I said in desperation:--
"You know very well what I mean, young woman. I want to put things
clearly before you--" It is the most difficult thing in the world for a
man--even without legs--to talk straight about the facts of life to a
young girl. He has no idea how much she knows about them and how much
she doesn't. To tear away veils and reveal frightening starkness is an
act from which he shrinks with all the modesty of a (perhaps) deluded
sex. I took courage. "I want," I repeated, "to put things clearly
before you. You are marrying this young man. You will have a week's
married life. He goes away like a gallant fellow to fight for his
country. He may be killed in the course of the next few weeks. Like a
brave girl you've got to face it. In the course of time a child may be
born--without a father to look after him. It's a terrific
responsibility."
She knelt upright and put both her hands on my shoulders, almost
embracing me, and the laughter died away from her eyes, giving place to
something which awakened memories of what I had seen once or twice in
the eyes of the dearest of all women. She put her face very close to
mine and whispered:
"Don't you see, dear, it's in some sort of way because of that? Don't
you think it would be awful for a strong, clean, brave English life
like his to go out without leaving behind him someone to--well, you
know what I mean--to carry on the same traditions--to be the same clean
brave Englishman in the future?"
I smiled and nodded. Quite a different kind of nod from the previous
one.
"Thousands of girls are doing it, you dear old Early Victorian, and
aren't ashamed to say so to those who really love and can understand
them. And you do love and understand, don't you?"
She set me off at arm's length, and held me with her bright unflinching
eyes.
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