Great Britain -- History -- Barons' War, 1263-1267 -- Fiction
Denise soon found that the frost of Ursula’s displeasure had fallen on
her, and that she was to be humiliated and chilled into a proper state
of penitence. The temper of the nuns changed to her; they came and went
without speaking, their impassive faces making her feel like a child
that is in disgrace. It was Ursula’s wish that Denise should be
mortified in soul and body. Her food and drink were water and bread, and
lest the devil of comfort should remain to tempt her to be obstinate,
they took the straw and sheets from the bed, and let her lie upon the
boards.
Moral frost at such a season was like a severe night in the late spring.
Denise’s need was to lie in the sun, and to be smiled upon by kind eyes.
It was the warm humanism of life that she needed, sympathy, and a clasp
of the hand. The utter injustice of the humiliation that they thrust
upon her began to awake in her a spirit of revolt. Had she not suffered
because of her innocence, and borne what these women had never had to
bear?
Why should she fall at Ursula’s feet, and pretend to a penitence that
she did not feel? And Aymery, too, was she to believe that he had spoken
as Ursula had said? If that was the truth, and why should Ursula lie,
she, Denise, would pray that she should never be driven to look upon his
face again.
Yet her bodily strength increased despite her spiritual unhappiness. The
wound in the breast had healed, and she had been able to leave her bed,
and move slowly round the room, steadying herself against the wall. And
as her strength increased the instinct of revolt grew in her till she
began to understand the mocking spirit of Marpasse. To be reviled,
humiliated, made to crawl in the dust, to regain a little grudging
respect by cringing to her sister women, and by pretending to emotions
that she did not feel! These good souls seemed set upon making the
re-ascent to cleanliness hard and unlovely. And Denise, like Marpasse,
felt a passionate impatience carrying her away.
Meanwhile Ursula, magnanimous lady, had taken pains to spread Denise’s
story through the convent, and the two nuns who had nursed her had been
women enough to know that Denise had borne a child. Ursula had issued
her commands; the contumacious devil was to be driven out of Denise; she
was to be humbled, and taught to pray for penitence and grace. The nuns
who served Denise now opened their mouths once more, and became oracles
whose inspiration had been caught from Ursula’s lips.
One would enter with the water-jar, set it under the window, and retreat
without so much as glancing at Denise. She would pause at the door, and
let fall some pious platitude that might act like yeast upon the
perverse one’s apathy.
“Flames of fire shall subdue those who are stubborn in sin.”
“While the vile flesh lives, the soul is in peril. Mortify the body
therefore, that the soul may be saved.”
“A proud heart means death. Let your pride be trampled under your feet.”
“Live, repent, and sin no more.”
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