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He drew up a chair and sat down beside her. “After all,” he said, in a
tone of good-humoured protest, “I needn’t have told you I’d kept back
your letter; and my telling you seems rather strong proof that I hadn’t
any very nefarious designs on you.”
She met this with a shrug, but he did not give her time to answer. “My
designs,” he continued with a smile, “were not nefarious. I saw you’d
been through a bad time with Mrs. Murrett, and that there didn’t seem
to be much fun ahead for you; and I didn’t see--and I don’t yet see--the
harm of trying to give you a few hours of amusement between a depressing
past and a not particularly cheerful future.” He paused again, and then
went on, in the same tone of friendly reasonableness: “The mistake I
made was not to tell you this at once--not to ask you straight out to
give me a day or two, and let me try to make you forget all the things
that are troubling you. I was a fool not to see that if I’d put it to
you in that way you’d have accepted or refused, as you chose; but that
at least you wouldn’t have mistaken my intentions.--Intentions!” He
stood up, walked the length of the room, and turned back to where she
still sat motionless, her elbows propped on the dressing-table, her chin
on her hands. “What rubbish we talk about intentions! The truth is I
hadn’t any: I just liked being with you. Perhaps you don’t know how
extraordinarily one can like being with you...I was depressed and adrift
myself; and you made me forget my bothers; and when I found you were
going--and going back to dreariness, as I was--I didn’t see why we
shouldn’t have a few hours together first; so I left your letter in my
pocket.”
He saw her face melt as she listened, and suddenly she unclasped her
hands and leaned to him.
“But are YOU unhappy too? Oh, I never understood--I never dreamed it! I
thought you’d always had everything in the world you wanted!”
Darrow broke into a laugh at this ingenuous picture of his state. He
was ashamed of trying to better his case by an appeal to her pity, and
annoyed with himself for alluding to a subject he would rather have
kept out of his thoughts. But her look of sympathy had disarmed him; his
heart was bitter and distracted; she was near him, her eyes were shining
with compassion--he bent over her and kissed her hand.
“Forgive me--do forgive me,” he said.
She stood up with a smiling head-shake. “Oh, it’s not so often that
people try to give me any pleasure--much less two whole days of it!
I sha’n’t forget how kind you’ve been. I shall have plenty of time to
remember. But this IS good-bye, you know. I must telegraph at once to
say I’m coming.”
“To say you’re coming? Then I’m not forgiven?”
“Oh, you’re forgiven--if that’s any comfort.”
“It’s not, the very least, if your way of proving it is to go away!”
She hung her head in meditation. “But I can’t stay.--How CAN I stay?”
she broke out, as if arguing with some unseen monitor.
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