"How can you tell?" said Phoebe, and she felt perfidious.
"Isn't he always going about with you?"
But Phoebe was ingenious in the destruction of her own joy.
"Oh," said she, "that's his cunning. He likes you dreadfully. He
goes about with me, just to hide it."
"You goose."
"Are you sure, Effie, you don't care?"
"Not a rap."
"You never have? Not in the beginning?"
"Certainly not in the beginning. I only thought he might be nice for
you."
"You didn't even want to divide him?"
Effie shook her head vehemently.
"Well--he's the only thing I ever wanted all to myself. If----" Then
Phoebe looked frightened. "Effie," she said, "he's never said
anything."
"All the same, you _know_."
"Can you know?"
"I think so," said Effie.
III
Gibson had been talking a long time to Phoebe. They were sitting
together on the beach, under the shadow of the cliff. He was trying
to form Phoebe's mind. Phoebe's mind was deliciously young, and
it had the hunger and thirst of youth. A little shy and difficult to
approach, Phoebe's mind, but he had found out what it liked best,
and it pleased him to see how confidingly and delicately it, so to
speak, ate out of his hand.
He puzzled her a good deal. And she had a very pretty way of closing
her eyes when she was puzzled. In another woman it would have meant
that he was boring her; Phoebe did it to shut out the intolerable
light of knowledge.
"Ah!--don't," he cried.
"Don't shut my eyes? I always shut my eyes when I'm trying to
think," said Phoebe.
He said nothing. That was not what he had meant when he had said
"Don't."
"Am I boring you?" he said presently. His tone jarred a little on
Phoebe; he had such a nice voice generally.
"No," said she. "Why?"
"Because you keep on doing that."
"Doing what?"
"That."
"Oh!--this?"
She put up her hand and untwisted the little tendril of brown hair
that hung deliciously over her left ear.
"I always do that when I'm thinking."
He very nearly said, "Then, for God's sake, don't think."
But Phoebe was always thinking now. He had given her cause to
think.
He began to hate the little brown curl that hung over her left ear,
though it was anguish to him to hate anything that was Phoebe's.
He looked out with nervous anxiety for the movement of her little
white hand. He said to himself, "If she does it again, I can't come
near her any more."
Yet he kept on coming; and was happy with her until Phoebe (poor,
predestined little Phoebe) did it again. Gibson shuddered with the
horror of the thing. He kept on saying to himself, "She's sweet,
she's good, she's adorable. It isn't her fault. But I can't--I can't
sit in the room with it."
And the next minute Phoebe would be so adorable that he would
repent miserably of his brutality.
Then, one hot, still evening, he was alone with her in the little
sitting-room. Outside, on the grass plot, her father sat in his
bath-chair while Effie read aloud to him (out of her turn). Her
voice made a cover for Gibson's voice and Phoebe's.
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