American fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, American
He left the sentence unfinished. She did not look at him. She turned her
face so he could not see it.
He tried to take her hand. But she avoided that, without actually
moving, without giving ground... as a boxer in the ring may escape the
full effect of a blow he does not parry by shrugging it off, without
retreating.
After a moment's silence she said: “Ferdinand...” and paused....
He felt sure of her, then. He drew a long breath. He wished they were
not standing by that window, framed in it, with the lighted room behind
them... but since she _would_ stand there... anyhow, now was the
time....
And then he heard himself pleading with her, eloquently, fervently. She
was his ideal! She was... he hated the word “affinity,” because it
had been cheapened and vulgarized by gross contacts... but she _was_ his
affinity. They were made for one another. It was predestined that they
should meet and love. She was what he needed to complete him, to fulfill
him. They would go forth together... not into the world, but away from
it... they would dwell upon the heights, and... and... so forth.
Ferdinand, as he pleaded, perhaps thought nothing consciously of the
fact that she must be spending money at the rate of fifty or sixty
thousand dollars a year. But, nevertheless, that subconscious mind of
his, of which he had so often spoken, that subliminal self, must have
been considering the figures, for suddenly there flashed before his
inner eye the result of a mathematical calculation..._ fifty thousand
dollars a year is the interest on one million dollars at five per cent_.
Ah, that would make his dreams possible! How his service to the human
race might be increased in value if all his time could be but given to
carrying his message! Farewell to the sordid struggle for bread! And in
the poetic depths of him there moved, unuttered, a phrase which he had
spoken aloud earlier in the day: _“I shall never wash another dish, nor
yet another undergarment_.” This secondary line of thought, however, did
not interfere with the lyric passion of his speech.
“You are asking me to... to... _elope_ with you!”
She still drooped her head, but she let him feel her nearness. He
wished--how he wished!--that they were away from that window. But he
would not break the spell by suggesting that they move. Perhaps he could
not reestablish it.
“Elope?” Ferdinand critically considered the word.
“I want you to come away with me, Alethea, into Paradise. I want you to
help me rediscover Eden! I want you! I want you!”
“But... your family?” she murmured.
He had her hand again, and this time she let him keep it. “That episode,
that unfortunate and foolish episode, my marriage, is ended,” said
Ferdinand, as he kissed her hand.
“Ah! Ended?” said Mrs. Watson. “You are no longer living with your
wife? The marriage is dissolved?” Mrs. Watson's own marriage had been
dissolved for some time; whether by death or by divorce Ferdinand had
never taken the trouble to inquire.
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