Forethought and preparation for the Future which shall be; farewell,
because of the Future which may never be—for us; “Man, thou hast goods
laid up for many years, and it is well; but, remember, this night _thy_
soul may be required”; is the unvoiced lesson of autumn. There is
growing up among us a great fear; it stares at us white, wide-eyed, from
the faces of men and women alike—the fear of pain, mental and bodily
pain. For the last twenty years we have waged war with suffering—a noble
war when fought in the interest of the many, but fraught with great
danger to each individual man. It is the fear which should not be,
rather than the ‘hope which is in us,’ that leads men in these days to
drape Death in a flowery mantle, to lay stress on the shortness of
parting, the speedy reunion, to postpone their good-byes until the last
moment, or avoid saying them altogether; and this fear is a poor, ignoble
thing, unworthy of those who are as gods, knowing good and evil. We are
still paying the price of that knowledge; suffering in both kinds is a
substantial part of it, and brings its own healing. Let us pay like men,
our face to the open heaven, neither whimpering like children in the
dark, nor lulled to unnecessary oblivion by some lethal drug; for it is
manly, not morbid, to dare to taste the pungent savour of pain, the
lingering sadness of farewell which emphasises the aftermath of life; it
should have its place in all our preparation as a part of our inheritance
we dare not be without.
There is an old couple in our village who are past work. The married
daughter has made shift to take her mother and the parish half-crown, but
there is neither room nor food for the father, and he must go to N—. If
husband and wife went together, they would be separated at the workhouse
door. The parting had to come; it came yesterday. I saw them stumbling
lamely down the road on their last journey together, walking side by side
without touch or speech, seeing and heeding nothing but a blank future.
As they passed me the old man said gruffly, “’Tis far eno’; better be
gettin’ back”; but the woman shook her head, and they breasted the hill
together. At the top they paused, shook hands, and separated; one went
on, the other turned back; and as the old woman limped blindly by I
turned away, for there are sights a man dare not look upon. She passed;
and I heard a child’s shrill voice say, “I come to look for you, gran”;
and I thanked God that there need be no utter loneliness in the world
while it holds a little child.
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