To this proceeding succeeded a period of reflection on the part of
Mrs. Bloxam. Should she inform Lord Sandilands of the events that had
taken place? Should she tell him how much sooner than she had
calculated upon, Gertrude had taken the decision of her fate into her
own hands? Should she tell him that the time to which she had looked
forward as an eventuality, which might come about in a couple of
years, had already taken place, and that now was the opportunity for
fulfilling the intentions which he had continuously, if vaguely,
expressed in his letters to her? Mrs. Bloxam debated this question
with herself, and self-interest loudly and persistently advised her to
silence. Lord Sandilands had never seen the girl, had never even
hinted at seeing her, had indeed distinctly disclaimed any intention
of ever seeing her. Nothing could be more improbable than that he
should find out what had occurred. If she should continue to apply to
his solicitor for the money which he was authorised to pay her at
certain intervals, no suspicion of any change in the state of affairs
could arise. And the money would be very welcome to her. By resorting
to the simple expedient of holding her tongue, she might avoid
scandal, avoid doing herself the injury which she most necessarily
inflict upon her school by the admission of an elopement having taken
place from within its walls, and secure a sum of money which would be
both useful and agreeable. To be sure, the day of reckoning must come,
but not yet; and if ever she should have it in her power to do any
service or kindness to the poor misguided girl, who would certainly
inevitably come, or she (Mrs. Bloxam) was much mistaken in Gilbert
Lloyd, to need service and kindness before much time should have gone
over her, she pledged herself, to herself, to show her all the
kindness in her power, unreservedly and heartily. Thus did Mrs. Bloxam
make the devil's bargain with herself; and very successfully did she
pursue the line of conduct which she had determined to follow, from
the period of Gertrude Keith's elopement to that evening on which she
had received the no-longer-deluded girl's letter, two years and a half
later. With the fatal facility which results from impunity, Mrs.
Bloxam had almost ceased to remember Gertrude, and had quite ceased to
feel uneasiness regarding the concealment she had practised towards
Lord Sandilands, and the appropriation of the sum of money which he
paid to her yearly. But with the perusal of Gertrude's letter the
subject again arose in her mind, and, as was Mrs. Bloxam's habit, she
faced it steadily and considered it maturely. Gertrude's proposition
was not an entirely pleasing one. There was a certain responsibility
attaching to assuming the charge of a young woman so strangely
situated; and the present acceptation of the trust might involve Mrs.
Bloxam in difficulties and dilemmas to which she was by no means blind
or insensible. But, on the other hand, she saw in Gertrude's return a
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