Yes, John Stanhope, you are growing old. That expanding forehead,
with the retreating hairs, tells the tale of time. The gray upon
your cheeks is whitening and the razor must be used more
vigilantly to further deception. Those creases in your face can
no longer be dismissed as character lines; the shagginess of your
eyebrows has the flying years to account for it. Plainly, John,
you and humbug must part company. You are not of this generation
and it is not for you.
I turned down the gas, threw open the window and let the
moonlight filter in through the elms and over the tops of the
little pines. The soft beauty of the night soothed me, and
gradually and very gently my irritation and annoyance slipped
away. Why should not a young girl, radiant in youth and beauty,
affect a young man of her generation? What has an old fellow,
with all his money and worldly experience and burnt-out youth, to
give in exchange for that intoxication which every girl may
properly regard her lawful gift? Undoubtedly I should make a
better husband, as husbands go, than my romantic nephew, and any
woman of rare common sense would see the advantages of my
position, but why burden a woman with that rare common sense
which robs her of the first and sweetest of her dreams? No, John
Stanhope, go back to your pipe and your books and your gardening,
your life of selfish, indolent do-nothing. Take life as it comes
most easily and naturally. By sparing one heart you may save two.
And that nephew of mine--what a fine, manly fellow he proved
himself when put to the test! The governor had been good to him
and he was going to stand by the governor. How my heart jumped,
and what a warm little feeling there was about the internal
cockles as I recalled his words. Bravely said, my boy, and nobly
done! I fear I should not have been so generous at your age, and
with Sylvia--
And with Sylvia! How the past crowded back at the thought of her!
Who are you, old dreamer, who neglected the gift the good gods
provided in the heydey of your youth to return to chase the
phantom of the past? Behind that little white cloud, sailing far
into the north, Sylvia may be peeping at you, and smiling at the
delusion of her ancient wooer. Or why not think that she is
pleading with you--pleading for her child and the lover, as she
might have pleaded for herself and somebody else, had somebody
else known his own heart before it was too late?
I watched the white cloud as it passed on and on, growing smaller
and fainter as it receded. I settled back still deeper in my
chair and sighed. And then--O unworthy knight of love!--and then,
I fell asleep.
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