"And so, glad as I was at the result in himself from his change of
luck, its result in his health lost some of its seriousness--as a thing
that is explained generally does, unless it is too bad. For I certainly
didn't take his explanation of it as 'fantasy,' it was quite obvious
that he had his finger on the real cause of his weakness. Given the
other extreme, as he had so candidly explained it, why shouldn't a
man fail in health with the failing of his luck? But I felt that he
was more affected by the shock of it than by its contemplation--and,
after all, I didn't love him weakly, I could deal with a shock, be it
ever so mental. His air of resignation, so foreign in him, disturbed
me a little; but, I thought, that is a natural part of the ailment and
one will deal with them both at a time. Yes, the thing would mend of
itself, for it carried its own cure with it, in a new and deepening
knowledge of himself. He would be better even before the pendulum of
this strange 'luck' of his had swung back again; and I had no fear from
what its swinging back to 'good' might bring to us both, for he was now
learning the lesson of himself beyond all un-learning.
"So I thought, anyway, after I had persuaded Roger, that same night,
to explain just a bit of what had been happening to him in the great
world--where, it seemed, luck of sorts made such a mess of men. And
indeed it was only a very little bit that he explained, for he was
tired, and said that it was a long and dull history, even though it
hadn't taken very long to happen. 'Exactly how long?' I asked, but he
evaded that--else maybe I had known so very much more!
"'As you know, when a writer wants to be done with one of his
characters,' he explained, 'he sometimes throws a few bad investments
and bucket-shops at the poor man and he's done for before you turn
the page. Well, there are plenty of such things outside books, and
I somehow seem to have happened on one or three of late. And these
_debacles_ always happen in the same way, if they are going to happen
at all, to men whose money is mostly on paper. The paper actually
becomes paper--and now even a French _gendarme_ wouldn't accept as a
tip most of the stuff that was once my fortune. I thought I had tried
every way there was of spending money, but I had never realised that
losing it was the quickest. I know now. And that's all, Iris.'
"'But, my dear, it doesn't matter all that much! After all,
bad-luck was never more than bad-luck seen in the Book of Job. It's
inconvenient, of course--'
"'It's certainly that. But, of course, all your money is quite safe
and doing very well, and I'll see any creditor to hell before you dare
pay him one penny of any debt of mine. I'd have you know that the
best bankrupts are always very touchy about the thoroughness of their
bankruptcies.... But, as you say, Iris, all that doesn't matter very
much.'
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