"That Fay's concession of herself was not more abandoned than an assent
I came to see through the window which an intimate household, unused
to secreting its intimacies except by way of good breeding, almost
forces upon the privileged third person. It didn't vividly strike one,
as such a fact vividly should, that Fay was in love with her _fiancé_;
not, I mean, that admirable sort of "in love" of young people, however
undemonstrative, which makes the third person, on leaving its happy
presence, want to clutch at the heart of the first pretty woman he sees
so that he too can share of the beauty of a beautiful world.... But the
opposite, the flatness of a forced emotion, certainly didn't strike me;
love was there, I suppose, but of that pale kind which so often doesn't
outlast, even in the purest mind, its consequence of marriage. The
third person didn't have the acute feeling that he had blundered, ever
so little, on them in a room; or that, once there, he should quickly
leave them. There was a "grown-up" atmosphere about her in Vitiali's
presence which, I once realised, was quite lacking when he wasn't
there; which was terribly seldom.... Of course, when I did come on them
together, as happened sometimes when I called in the afternoon and Mrs.
Richmond was 'lying down,' I generally found a way to retire quite
early--but entirely because of that other party to the approaching
marriage, the charming Vitiali, whose eyes made no secret of a fact
which, after all, there's no reason to conceal from a celibate woman.
"I had nothing from Fay about the preliminaries, as I came to be
curious about them. She never spoke of yesterday, very seldom of
to-morrow; all her words and laughter were for the present moment, when
you were with her and were held captive by the deliciously sincere
brown eyes, which could mock so faintly--and, if she chose to play
with you, act so plaintively! Perhaps it is because I, even then,
had put her on a velvet cushion in a glass case, to admire and enjoy
her especially, but she certainly did seem a figure quite apart from
her own generation of just-emerged _débutantes_--usually a tiresome
barley-water stage for a girl, when she hasn't yet quite dropped
her girlish giggle for her woman's smile. I never thought of her in
relation to the other maidenly things one met in drawing-rooms round
about, even when she was herself there as one of them, and by a quaint
mixture of shyness and self-possession made one mentally describe
her by an unusual epithet for a girl--she looked gracious! But then
that was suitable, for parties and such-like were different to these
nowadays. It was much less difficult then than it is now to tell a lady
from a _demi-mondaine_; girls hadn't yet learnt, or pretended they
hadn't, to be sophisticated before getting married. One played more
ping-pong in those days.
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