But at this very moment she was as she had once been, pointing out that
I was one of the reasons why "girls go wrong in London. For if I had
taken any notice of your pompous warnings to let Roger and Antony be
as they were, I would have gone through life with a fixed idea of how
horrible men are to each other. Whereas, you know, they aren't that
at all--for instance, those two are quite divine together, and very
pleased to have made up their absurd quarrel. And as I look at them
it's very difficult to believe that all your talk about them wasn't a
nightmare, or a bad short story badly translated from the Russian."
In fact it was quite remarkable, she told me, how good they seemed
to be for each other; fancifully, as though each one had taken on
something of the other's quality--Antony seeming to have become more
intelligent and balanced, and Roger more genial, more--well--human.
Which, of course, made everything much more pleasant for her....
But I had to protest when she said that Antony seemed so interested in
talking and listening to his brother that he noticed her very little;
that, in fact, she had been rather shocked to see that he wasn't now
wasting any time over any remnants of good looks that might still be
left to her since he had left England.
"He doesn't ignore me, of course. He is quite charming and courteous,
and tries his best to lower his voice when speaking to one, in the old
way, but--well, he's only just aware when I am in or out of the room,"
she added helpfully.
That aroused in me a perverse candour about something so far untouched
between us, and I said: "But you know as well as I do, Iris, that you
were one of the main reasons, or the main reason, why Antony wanted to
make friends with Roger."
She stared at me thoughtfully, as though examining a certain mental
aspect of me; but I seemed to have been wrong about the infernal man so
often as far as she was concerned that I was now quite reckless about
making just one more _faux pas_. "And," I added grimly, "wanted to see
if you liked Roger as much or more than you--"
"All right, all right," she impatiently stopped me. "Ronnie, you've
developed a great talent for seeming to give knowledge when you're
only roasting chestnuts. Of course, I had gathered all that--not too
seriously, of course. There is always an indecent part of one that
flatters oneself that one just might be worth fighting about--and so
it wasn't difficult to work up a dim but thrilling idea that Antony
might still be trying out his luck after two years; and, after you had
been so beastly about him, that he might be wanting to spite Roger
because of me--being a man, you know, and as common-minded as most men
about such things as rivalries and revenges about women. But it's very
obvious now that all that was just the froth of our diseased minds, and
that poor Antony quite sincerely wanted Roger to like him--and for his
own, not for my sake."
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