England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; English fiction -- 20th century; Families -- Fiction; Spouses -- Fiction
“God, what a stumor!” was Doug’s final verdict on Stanley, as the train
from Gullick bore him away, with his womenfolk.
“Well, I’m going to take old Rough for another swim; it freshens him
up.” Doug poised for an instant in clean outline against the dark
waves, and then plunged, followed in untidy, spluttering fashion by his
dog, who detested the water, and only went in uttering sharp yelps of
anguish because he believed each time that Doug was in the extremities
of a life-and-death struggle.
Ursula watched the pair till they disappeared round the headland
which jutted from the opposite side of the cove. Doug was swimming
magnificently; he was certainly in superb physical condition.... And
so ready for a romantic episode, that he was only kept from it by the
sheer fact of no accessible girl--“And that’s a fact which can’t go on
for ever,” mused Ursula.
So she had achieved nothing more than false security, by their
withdrawal to loneliness and the country. He was bursting to talk of
Doug-land and the horizon that pulled and pulled, to some one--not
herself, oh, not herself!--to some one fresh and tremulous, who would
say “we mustn’t, Doug....” and long for such a ringing love-adventure
with so superb a hero.
It must come some time, sooner or later; Ursula knew she could not
always strain to hold at arms-length the inevitable meeting. She had
mistaken delay for prevention. But she had not altered Doug.
The very next girl.
“Ahoy--y--y!” Doug was exultantly calling her attention to himself from
the opposite headland of rock. Sure of his audience, he treated her to
a careless ripple of his muscles, then stood taut and dived. His black
head reappeared on the surface several yards nearer to her.
“Oh--he does want his nice brand-new romance!” And with that, her sense
of property flared up to a fierce height. You ought never to have to
give up what has once been yours. Not a room nor a husband; and not
the illusion that whatever sudden change you make in your life, is the
right change.
The very next girl.
[II]
URSULA began to think quite a lot about her intangible rival. Then to
be irritated by her. If she could have fixed her mind on a certain
definite personality--been jealous of it, she might have wrestled
better with jealousy than now, when compelled to alter over and over
again the shape and colour of a girl, the way she moved, and the
intonations of her voice, to alter all these and twist them a thousand
times, and then destroy the revision and throw the whole girl away and
pick up a totally different one.
All that Ursula knew for certain was that the girl would come. And that
this anticipation of her, the wondering and the waiting, was a thousand
times more torturing than the actual spectacle of Doug in the throes
of an episode. This one, which perforce was bound to overtake him, had
gained importance by the elaborate way in which she had drawn him to
step backward and backward from it.
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