Stony Brook was black with them. There was no open patch of stream bed
to be seen. And with the excessive crowding, the general procession,
so steadily insistent on its own time, was hurried up to some extent.
Their motion became almost ponderous and tense, while individual fish
leaped like dolphins, pewter- and gold-sided, over and through the dark
herd. Others circled in and out or kept pace with the rest, staring
ahead.
They had a synchronized momentum of their own. If I dropped a stone in
the middle of them, they would separate at that point and then close in
to fill the gap. There could be no nullifying or breaking their united
persistence. Their onwardness, their desperate dashing against the
rocks, had its own logic--a logic which had nothing to do with hope,
reason, or choosing another alternative. No way out, in other words.
Slavery to the reproductive urge. These alewives are more dumb than
sheep. If you were to press your own sympathy hard enough, you might
feel a terrible lack of variety in them, or, paradoxically enough, of
daring. The lidless-eyed and plunging multitude seems brutally driven,
without a chance. This is “togetherness” with a terrible vengeance.
Perhaps there is something here that we know too, as fellow animals,
and lose sight of. At the risk of making one of those vaguely
anthropomorphic assumptions against which the objective scientists are
constantly warning us, I would guess that the self-motivation in this
onward mass of fish might be compared to those human crowds that take
action under stress, independently of the individuals that make them
up. Suddenly a crowd, hitherto a random combination of people, takes
on a frightening rhythm and purpose of its own. It is governed by
laws which go back infinitely farther in the history of life than the
immediate goal of its anger or exultation.
I have explained nothing. I can only say that when I first saw these
fish I was moved in spite of myself. Instinct is no more blind than
wonder. To have the human attributes of mind and spirit and the race’s
ability to control its own environment does not give me the wit to beat
the infinitely various will of life at its own game. All I could wish
for would be to join it.
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