What more natural, therefore, than that the man who fulfilled all these
requirements and whom she would give her life to serve was Fallaray. He
had been brought home to her every Thursday evening by her aunt for ten
years. She had read in the papers every word that he had spoken; had
followed his course of action through all the years of the War which he
had done his best to prevent; had watched his lonely struggle to
substantiate a League of Nations free from blood lust and territorial
greed; had seen him pelted with lies and calumny when he had cried out
that Germany must be allowed to live if Europe were to live; and that
very day had stood trembling in front of the billboard which announced
that he would not stand for the bloody and disastrous reprisals in
Ireland that were backed by the Prime Minister. He was the one honest
man, the one idealist in English politics; the one great humanitarian
who possessed that strength and fairness of mind which permitted him to
see both sides of a question; to belong to a party without being a slave
to its shibboleths; to commit the sudden volt-faces so impossible to
brass hats and to the Junkers of all nationality; the one man in the
House of Commons who didn’t give a damn for limelight,
self-aggrandizement, titles, graft and all the rest of the things which
have been brought into that low and unclean business by men who would
sell the country for a drink. And above all he was unhappy with his
wife.
The housekeeper aunt had built up for this girl a hero who fitted
exactly into the niche in her heart and ambitions. All the stories and
backstairs gossip about him had excited her desire to become a second
Madame de Brézé in his life and bring the rustle of silk to this Eveless
man. Never once did there enter into her game of make-believe or her
dreams of achievement the idea of becoming Fallaray’s wife, even if, at
any time, he should be free to marry again. She had too keen a sense of
psychology for that. She saw the need to Fallaray, as to other such men
in his position, of a secret romance,—stolen meetings, brief escapes,
entrancing interludes, and the desire—the paradox of asceticism—for
feminine charms. She had read the story of Parnell and understood it; of
Nelson and sympathized with it. She knew the history of other men of
absorbing patriotism and great intellect who had kept their optimism and
their humanity because of a woman’s tenderness and flattery, and
whenever she looked at the picture of Fallaray, in whom she recognized a
modern Quixote tilting at windmills, she saw that he stood in urgent
need of a woman who could do for him what Madame de Brézé had done for
that minister of Louis XIV. During all her intelligent years, therefore,
she had conducted herself in the hope, vague and futile as it seemed, of
some day being discovered to Fallaray, and in her heart there had grown
up a love and a hero worship so strong and so passionate that it could
never be transferred to any other man.
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