Without the slightest feeling of remorse at his failure to
keep the engagement, he determined to ride over to the house and see
her. Millicent received him rather coolly, having spent the afternoon
crying with worry and disappointment at his non-appearance; and he, only
half noticing her mood, failed to understand it. He was dimly aware
that her society was not as agreeable as usual, and consequently he
devoted himself to Mrs. Deering during the evening. At first Miss
Almsford kept aloof from the conversation; but later, when her lover
began to talk brilliantly, she drew near to where he sat and listened to
his words with downcast eyes. Graham was in wonderful vein that night;
his every gesture spoke of a strong under-current of excitement. His
eyes shone, and his deep voice had a thrill of enthusiasm which stirred
the pulses of the calm-browed girl, sitting near by with softly folded
hands and parted, breathless lips. But it was neither for Millicent,
nor because of Millicent, that the young man talked so brilliantly. A
more stimulating influence than hers had touched him, and he was beyond
the reach of her sympathy; exalted by the wings of his genius to that
clear, cool, lonely communion with the immortals which only such as he
experience. Dismayed, and yet full of reverence for this new phase of
his nature, Millicent was filled with a great pain. She was left
behind; she could follow but not accompany the flight of his fancy; and
a sense of lonely desolation chilled the hot heart-blood with a
depression the like of which she had never before known. The ethereal
quality of her being recognized and did honor to his bold up-winging;
but the personal, selfish side rebelled at the neglect to which she was
subjected. The struggle in her breast was at that time unintelligible
to herself; in after days, when the baser nature had been overcome, she
realized it all, and knew that the long death-struggle of self began
that night when Graham’s eyes looked beyond her for inspiration, up to
the blue-starred empyrean over both their heads.
More from habit than because he needed her society, her lover asked her
to step for a moment upon the piazza before he left. As they stood side
by side, he absently took her firm, small hand in his and kissed the
pink fingers one by one, as if she had been a child. All at once he
perceived that she was weeping, her slender form shaken by a storm of
sobs.
"Millicent, my child, what is it? Are you ill?" he asked, tenderly
stroking her hair.
"No, only unhappy. Graham, why did you not come for me to-day? I
waited for you all the afternoon."
"Did I not tell you, dear, that I was very busy? I have begun a new
picture. I quite forgot my engagement with you,--I am very sorry," he
answered, puzzled at her emotion.
"Then it is your picture that is my rival. I hate it, I hate it! I
never want to see it!
"Millicent, what do you mean?"
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