Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Married people -- Fiction; Seafaring life -- Fiction; Whaling -- Fiction
Humanity has an immense capacity for rising to an emergency. The human
heart sustains a grief that should kill; it throws this grief aside and
is--save for a hidden scar--as gay as it was in the beginning. Man meets
peril or death, meets them unafraid.... If he had considered these
emergencies in the calm and security of his home, his hair would have
crawled with terror at the thought of them. The imagination can conjure
dreadful things; the heart and soul and body of man can endure
catastrophes beyond imagining. There is no load too heavy for this
immortally designed fabric of flesh and blood and bone to bear. There
is a psychological phenomenon that might be called the duplication of
personality. A soldier in battle becomes two men. One of these men is
convulsed with lust for blood; he screams, he shoots, he stabs, he
kills. The other is calm and serene; he watches the doings of his other
self, considers them with calm mind, plans perilous combinations in the
twinkling of an eye.... The soldier contains within himself a general
who plans, and an army which executes the plan....
It was so with Faith. She shrank in spirit and heart before Noll's
horrible outpouring; yet was she at the same time steady and
undisturbed. There was a numbness upon her; a numbness that killed
suffering and at the same time stimulated thought.... She was able to
perceive the very depths of Noll; she looked, at the same time, into her
own depths.... She heard him accuse her of foul passion for Brander; she
knew, instead, that she loved Brander completely.... She had never known
her love for Brander before; Noll showed it to her, dragged it out where
she could see it beyond mistaking.... And even in that moment she
welcomed this love; welcomed it, and saw that it was honest, and
wholesome, and splendid, and clean.... She welcomed it, so that she
smiled....
Her smile struck Noll like a blow in the face, stunning and sobering
him. He flung out his hands.
"Come!" he commanded. "What do you say? Say something? Say...."
"What?" she asked. "What shall I say?"
"Is it true? Damn you.... Damn you.... Is it true?"
"Could I say anything you would believe?"
"No, by God! You're dirty and false as hell. You...." He struck his
hands together helplessly. "Nothing," he cried. "Nothing! Nothing you
can say.... Dirty as hell...."
Yet his eyes still besought her to speak; she touched the bench beside
her. "Sit down, Noll," she said gently.
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