He dropped his head to the scale and resumed the copying. I finished my
work and had opened the door to leave, when he spoke to me.
“Hump, if you will look on the west coast of the map of Norway you will
see an indentation called Romsdal Fiord. I was born within a hundred
miles of that stretch of water. But I was not born Norwegian. I am a
Dane. My father and mother were Danes, and how they ever came to that
bleak bight of land on the west coast I do not know. I never heard.
Outside of that there is nothing mysterious. They were poor people and
unlettered. They came of generations of poor unlettered people—peasants
of the sea who sowed their sons on the waves as has been their custom
since time began. There is no more to tell.”
“But there is,” I objected. “It is still obscure to me.”
“What can I tell you?” he demanded, with a recrudescence of fierceness.
“Of the meagreness of a child’s life? of fish diet and coarse living? of
going out with the boats from the time I could crawl? of my brothers, who
went away one by one to the deep-sea farming and never came back? of
myself, unable to read or write, cabin-boy at the mature age of ten on
the coastwise, old-country ships? of the rough fare and rougher usage,
where kicks and blows were bed and breakfast and took the place of
speech, and fear and hatred and pain were my only soul-experiences? I do
not care to remember. A madness comes up in my brain even now as I think
of it. But there were coastwise skippers I would have returned and
killed when a man’s strength came to me, only the lines of my life were
cast at the time in other places. I did return, not long ago, but
unfortunately the skippers were dead, all but one, a mate in the old
days, a skipper when I met him, and when I left him a cripple who would
never walk again.”
“But you who read Spencer and Darwin and have never seen the inside of a
school, how did you learn to read and write?” I queried.
“In the English merchant service. Cabin-boy at twelve, ship’s boy at
fourteen, ordinary seaman at sixteen, able seaman at seventeen, and cock
of the fo’c’sle, infinite ambition and infinite loneliness, receiving
neither help nor sympathy, I did it all for myself—navigation,
mathematics, science, literature, and what not. And of what use has it
been? Master and owner of a ship at the top of my life, as you say, when
I am beginning to diminish and die. Paltry, isn’t it? And when the sun
was up I was scorched, and because I had no root I withered away.”
“But history tells of slaves who rose to the purple,” I chided.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account