Christian fiction; Neighborhoods -- Scotland -- Fiction
She was a strange child, this Wynnie of ours. Whereas most people are in
danger of thinking themselves in the right, or insisting that they are
whether they think so or not, she was always thinking herself in the
wrong. Nay more, she always expected to find herself in the wrong. If
the perpetrator of any mischief was inquired after, she always looked
into her own bosom to see whether she could not with justice aver that
she was the doer of the deed. I believe she felt at that moment as if
she had been deceiving me already, and deserved to be driven out of
the house. This came of an over-sensitiveness, accompanied by a general
dissatisfaction with herself, which was not upheld by a sufficient faith
in the divine sympathy, or sufficient confidence of final purification.
She never spared herself; and if she was a little severe on the younger
ones sometimes, no one was yet more indulgent to them. She would eat all
their hard crusts for them, always give them the best and take the worst
for herself. If there was any part in the dish that she was helping that
she thought nobody would like, she invariably assigned it to her own
share. It looked like a determined self-mortification sometimes; but
that was not it. She did not care for her own comfort enough to feel it
any mortification; though I observed that when her mother or I helped
her to anything nice, she ate it with as much relish as the youngest
of the party. And her sweet smile was always ready to meet the least
kindness that was offered her. Her obedience was perfect, and had been
so for very many years, as far as we could see. Indeed, not since she
was the merest child had there been any contest between us. Now, of
course, there was no demand of obedience: she was simply the best
earthly friend that her father and mother had. It often caused me some
passing anxiety to think that her temperament, as well as her devotion
to her home, might cause her great suffering some day; but when those
thoughts came, I just gave her to God to take care of. Her mother
sometimes said to her that she would make an excellent wife for a poor
man. She would brighten up greatly at this, taking it for a compliment
of the best sort. And she did not forget it, as the sequel will show.
She would choose to sit with one candle lit when there were two on the
table, wasting her eyes to save the candles. “Which will you have for
dinner to-day, papa, roast beef or boiled?” she asked me once, when her
mother was too unwell to attend to the housekeeping. And when I replied
that I would have whichever she liked best--“The boiled beef lasts
longest, I think,” she said. Yet she was not only as liberal and kind as
any to the poor, but she was, which is rarer, and perhaps more important
for the final formation of a character, carefully just to everyone with
whom she had any dealings. Her sense of law was very strong. Law with
her was something absolute, and not to be questioned. In her childhood
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