Christian fiction; Neighborhoods -- Scotland -- Fiction
She was a strange child, this Wynnie of ours. Whereas most people are
in danger of thinking themselves in the right, or insisting that they
are whether they think so or not, she was always thinking herself in
the wrong. Nay more, she always expected to find herself in the wrong.
If the perpetrator of any mischief was inquired after, she always
looked into her own bosom to see whether she could not with justice
aver that she was the doer of the deed. I believe she felt at that
moment as if she had been deceiving me already, and deserved to be
driven out of the house. This came of an over-sensitiveness,
accompanied by a general dissatisfaction with herself, which was not
upheld by a sufficient faith in the divine sympathy, or sufficient
confidence of final purification. She never spared herself; and if she
was a little severe on the younger ones sometimes, no one was yet more
indulgent to them. She would eat all their hard crusts for them, always
give them the best and take the worst for herself. If there was any
part in the dish that she was helping that she thought nobody would
like, she invariably assigned it to her own share. It looked like a
determined self-mortification sometimes; but that was not it. She did
not care for her own comfort enough to feel it any mortification;
though I observed that when her mother or I helped her to anything
nice, she ate it with as much relish as the youngest of the party. And
her sweet smile was always ready to meet the least kindness that was
offered her. Her obedience was perfect, and had been so for very many
years, as far as we could see. Indeed, not since she was the merest
child had there been any contest between us. Now, of course, there was
no demand of obedience: she was simply the best earthly friend that her
father and mother had. It often caused me some passing anxiety to think
that her temperament, as well as her devotion to her home, might cause
her great suffering some day; but when those thoughts came, I just gave
her to God to take care of. Her mother sometimes said to her that she
would make an excellent wife for a poor man. She would brighten up
greatly at this, taking it for a compliment of the best sort. And she
did not forget it, as the sequel will show. She would choose to sit
with one candle lit when there were two on the table, wasting her eyes
to save the candles. "Which will you have for dinner to-day, papa,
roast beef or boiled?" she asked me once, when her mother was too
unwell to attend to the housekeeping. And when I replied that I would
have whichever she liked best--"The boiled beef lasts longest, I
think," she said. Yet she was not only as liberal and kind as any to
the poor, but she was, which is rarer, and perhaps more important for
the final formation of a character, carefully just to everyone with
whom she had any dealings. Her sense of law was very strong. Law with
her was something absolute, and not to be questioned. In her childhood
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