The Secret Life: Being the Book of a HereticBisland, Elizabeth
Philosophy
The Secret Life: Being the Book of a Heretic
Bisland, Elizabeth
Diaries
"Whether we regard life as a lane leading to a dead wall--a mere bag's
end, as the French say--or whether we think of it as a vestibule or
gymnasium where we wait our turn and prepare our faculties for some
nobler destiny ... whether we look justly for years of health and
vigour, or are about to mount into a bath chair as a step towards
the hearse,--in each and all of these situations there is but one
conclusion possible; that a man should stop his ears to paralyzing
terror, and run the race that is set before him with a single mind."
In that Sermon is all the philosophy of Greece, the stern courage of
Rome.
December 23.
"Philistia, be Thou Glad of Me."
Strange things rise up to us out of the deeps. Because I am a heathen,
and Apollo is my god rather than any other, I have never been quite
able to comprehend the powerful appeal the Hebrew Messiah makes
to the hearts of so many. The solution is to be found in this "De
Profundis"--Oscar Wilde's posthumous volume. It is a beautiful book:
likely to become a classic of our language by reason of its beautiful,
limpid English, its amazing exposition of the course of reasoning by
which an outcast of humanity reaches peace and reconciliation with his
own soul.
The man's crime, I think, was the result of his reluctance to
relinquish youth, with its passions and stimulations of the senses. We
all find its relinquishment a tragedy. Some of us refuse to accept the
slow, cold enveloping of that cruel serpent of Time, which squeezes
out of us our beauty, our vigour, our warmth, and leaves us pallid and
eviscerated before devouring us entirely. Wilde, whose whole existence
was the pursuit of passion and beauty, violently resenting the fact
that with the lapse of years he was no longer able to wake the old
thrill of existence by any of the old methods--finding that poetry,
art, and the beauty of women all left him more and more jaded and cold,
he grasped at vice as a means of heat, and brought himself within the
iron clutch of the law. One can guess, even without the aid of his own
confessions, at the hysterical rage of this sybaritic dandy caught in
the grim trap of the reprobation of Society. Not only the physical
discomforts and restraints bore heavily, but more intolerable was the
contempt and disgust of the average man--the Philistine--to whom he
had always held himself airily and scornfully superior. The old primal
laws of the struggle for life lie too deep for even the boldest of us
to lightly face universal condemnation. The worst of rebels and cynics
is so dependent upon the countenance of his fellows that when good-will
is withdrawn a sort of madness of despair falls upon him, and this
vain, sensitive poet makes it plain how the passionate protest of the
ordinary criminal was in his case intensified to ecstasy. One sees the
poor creature, like a rat in a cage, darting hither and thither, and
shivering with sick and furious helplessness at the rigidity of the
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