Donaldson's brows contracted. He was big-hearted. This seemed a cruel
thing to do. He whistled to the pup and called him by name, "Sandy,
Sandy." But the dog only wagged his tail in response and snuggled with
brute confidence closer to his master. Donaldson snapped his fingers
coaxingly, leaning far over towards him. Reluctantly, at a nod from
Barstow, the dog crept belly to the ground across the room. Donaldson
picked up the trembling terrier and settling him into his lap passed
his hand thoughtfully over the warm smooth sides where he could feel
the heart pounding sturdily.
From the dog, Donaldson lifted his eyes to Barstow's back. They were
dark brown eyes, set deep below a square forehead. His head, too, was
square and drooped a bit between loose shoulders. He smiled to himself
at some passing thought and the smile cast a pleasant softness over
features which at rest appeared rather angular and decidedly intense.
The mouth was large and the irregular teeth were white as a hound's.
His black hair was cut short and at the temples was turning gray,
although he had not yet reached thirty. It was an eager face, a strong
face. It hardened to granite over life in the abstract and softened to
the feminine before concrete examples of it.
"It is a bit of a paradox," he resumed, "that so harmless a creature as
you, Barstow, should stumble upon so deadly an agent. What do you call
it?"
"I have n't reported it yet. I don't know as I care to have my name
coupled with it in these days of newspaper notoriety--even though it
may be my one bid for fame."
Donaldson drew a package of Durham from his pocket and fumbled around
until he found a loose paper. He deftly rolled a cigarette, his long
fingers moving with the dexterity of a pianist. He smoked a moment in
silence, exhaling the smoke thoughtfully with his eyes towards the
ceiling. The dog, his neck outstretched on Donaldson's knee, blinked
sleepily across the room at his master. The gas, blown about by drafts
from the open window, threw grotesque dancing shadows upon the stained,
worn boards of the floor. Finally Donaldson burst out, ever recurring
to the one subject like a man anxious to defend himself,
"Barstow, I tell you that merely to cling to existence is not an act in
itself either righteous or courageous. If we owe obligations to
individuals we should pay them to the last cent. If we owe obligations
to society, we should pay those, too,--just as we pay our poll tax.
But life is a straight business proposition--pay in some form for what
you get out of it. There are no individuals in my life, as I said.
And what do I owe society? Society does not like what I offer--the
best of me--and will not give me what I want--the best of _it_. Very
well, to the devil with society. Our mutual obligations are cancelled."
Barstow, still busy with his work, shook his head.
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