"Have you not one word of greeting, Hyacinth? It is the morning of a
fresh day. I have not seen you since the noon of yesterday. Speak to
me--after your own old bright way. Why, Hyacinth, what has changed you?
We used to laugh all the sunny summer day through, and now you give me
only a smile. What has changed you?"
She never remembered what answer she made him, nor how she escaped. She
remembered nothing until she found herself in her own room, her heart
beating, her face dyed with burning blushes, and her whole soul awake
and alarmed.
"What has changed me?" she asked. "What has come over me? I know--I
know. I love him!"
She fell on her knees and buried her face in her hands--she wept
passionately.
"I love him," she said--"oh, Heaven, make me worthy to love him!"
She knelt in a kind of waking trance, a wordless ecstasy. She loved him;
her heart was awake, her soul slept no more. That was why she dreaded
yet longed to meet him--why his presence gave her pain that was sweeter
than all joy.
This paradise she had gained was what, in her blindness and folly she
had flown from; and she knew now, as she knelt there, that, had all the
treasures of earth been offered to her, had its fairest gifts been laid
at her feet, she would have selected this from them.
At last the great joy, the great mystery, the crowning pleasure of
woman's life, was hers. She called to mind all that the poets had
written of love. Was it true? Ah, no! It fell a thousand fathoms short.
Such happiness, such joy as made music in her heart could not be told in
words, and her face burned again as she remembered the feeble sentiment
that she had dignified by the name of love. Now that she understood
herself, she knew that it was impossible she could ever have loved
Claude Lennox; he had not enough grandeur or nobility of character to
attract her.
When she went down to the _salon_, Sir Arthur and Adrian were there
alone; she fled like a startled fawn. He was to dine with them that day,
and she spent more time than usual over her toilet. How could she make
herself fair enough in the eyes of the man who was her king? Very fair
did she look, for among her treasures she found an old-fashioned
brocade, rich, heavy, and beautiful, and it was trimmed with rich point
lace. The ground was white, with small rosebuds embroidered on it. The
fair, rounded arms and white neck shone out even fairer than the white
dress; a few pearls that Lady Vaughan had given her shone like dew-drops
in the fair hair. She looked both long and anxiously in the mirror, so
anxious was she to look well in his eyes.
"Miss Vaughan grows quite difficult to please," said Pincott to her
mistress, later on; and Lady Vaughan smiled.
"There may be reasons," she returned; "we have all been young once--we
must not quite forget what youth is like. Ah--there is the dinner-bell."
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