“Grainger!” she exclaimed, vexed and incredulous. “Why Grainger? Why not
anybody as well as Grainger? Yes, I’ve seen the young man. He looks
like a pugilistic Broad-Church parson. All he wants is to climb and to
reform everything.”
“Exactly the type for British politics,” Gavan rejoined. “He is in
earnest about politics, and I’m not; you know I’m not.” His friend
helplessly owned that he was exasperating. Grainger, had he known to
whom he was indebted for his lift, would have felt, perhaps, a
heightened wrath against “drawing-room influence.”
Happily and justifiably unconscious, he proceeded to climb.
Meanwhile another pair of shoes was swiftly found for Gavan. He went out
to India as secretary to the viceroy.
Here, in the surroundings of his early youth, the second great moral
upheaval of his life came to him. Three years had passed since his
mother’s death. He was twenty-six years old.
During a long summer among the mountains of Simla, he met Alice Grafton.
She was married, a year older than himself, but a girl still in mind and
appearance--fragile, hesitant, exquisite. Gavan at his very first seeing
of her felt something knocking in his heart. It seemed like pity,
instinctive pity, the bond between him and life, and for some time he
deluded himself with this comparatively safe interpretation. He did not
quite know why he should pity Mrs. Grafton. That she should look like a
girl was hardly a reason, nor that her husband, large, masterful,
embossed with decorations, was uninteresting. She had been married to
him--by all accounts the phrase applied--at nineteen and could not find
him sympathetic; but, after all, many cheerful women were in that
situation. He was a kindly, an admiring husband, and her life was set in
luxurious beauty. Yet piteousness was there. She was all promise and
unfulfilment; and dimly, mutely, she seemed to feel that the promise
would never be fulfilled, as though a too-early primrose smiled
wistfully through a veil of ice. Should she never become consciously
unhappy that would be but another symptom of permanent immaturity.
Gavan rode with her and talked with her, and read with her in her fresh,
flower-filled drawing-room. Their tastes were not at all alike; but he
did not in the least mind that when she lifted her lovely eyes to him
over poor poetry; and when she played and sang to him her very
ineffectuality added a pathos, full of charm, to the obvious ballads
that she liked. It was sweet, too, and endearing, to watch her, by
degrees, molding her taste to his until it became a delightful and
intuitive echo.
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