She was walking now, a little ahead of him, down the thread-like path
that wound among phantom bracken. The islet of space where they could
see seemed like a tiny ship gliding forward with them into a white,
boundless ocean. Such, thought Gavan, was human life.
In a long silence he felt that her mood had changed. Over her shoulder
she looked round at him at last with her eyes of the spiritual
steeplechaser. “It’s war to the knife, Gavan.”
She hurt him in saying it. “You only have the knife,” he answered, and
his gentleness might have reproached the sudden challenge.
“You have poison.”
“I never put it to your lips, dear.”
She saw his pain. “Oh, don’t be afraid for me,” she said. “I drink your
poison, and it is a tonic, a wine, that fills me with greater ardor for
the fight.”
IX
They were on the path that led to the deeply sunken garden gate, and
they had not spoken another word while they followed it, while they
stooped a little under the tangle of ivy that drooped from the stone
lintel, while they went past the summer-house and on between the rows of
withered plants and the empty, wintry spaces of the garden; only when
they were nearly at the house, under the great pine-tree, did Eppie
cheerfully surmise that they would be exactly on time for tea, and by
her manner imply that tea was far more present to her thoughts than
daggers or poison.
He felt that in some sense matters had been left in the lurch. He didn’t
quite know where he stood for her with his disastrous darkness about
him--whether she had really taken up a weapon for open warfare or
whether she hadn’t wisely fallen back upon the mere pleasantness of
friendly intercourse, turning her eyes away from his accompanying gloom.
He was glad to find her alone that evening after dinner when he had left
the general in the smoking-room over a review and a cigar. Miss Barbara
had gone early to bed, so that Eppie, in her white dress, as on the
night of his arrival, had the dark brightness of the firelit room all to
herself. He was glad, because the sense of uncertainty needed defining,
and uncertainty, since that last moment of trembling, had been so acute
that any sort of definition would be a relief.
An evening alone with her, now that they were really on the plane of
mutual understanding, would put his vague fears to the test. He would
learn whether they must be fled from or whether, as mere superficial
tremors, tricks of the emotions, they could not be outfaced smilingly.
He really didn’t want to run away, especially not until he clearly knew
from what he ran.
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