The Shadow of the PastYoung, F. E. Mills (Florence Ethel Mills)
Philosophy
The Shadow of the Past
Young, F. E. Mills (Florence Ethel Mills)
South African War, 1899-1902 -- Fiction; Triangles (Interpersonal relations) -- Fiction
As the silence between them lengthened, Brenda Upton became aware that
the man beside her moved nearer to her; observed too, when she turned
towards him, that he was more intent upon the study of her face than
upon the deep swell of the moving waters, the sinister strength and
secretiveness of the mountain range that walled and overlooked the bay.
He had brought her here to see these things, but he did not look at them
himself; he was not after all sharing them with her. A faint resentment
stirred her as she met the steady gaze of the indolent eyes; she felt
somehow cheated.
"I thought this would move you," he said in a voice of satisfaction.
"It moves me--yes." She took up a handful of sand and let it run slowly
through her fingers. "And you?" she asked.
Suddenly he smiled. He changed his attitude for a more comfortable
position, reclining on the sand on his elbow, with his chin supported on
his hand.
"I'm enjoying your enjoyment. That's enough for me to-night. It's a
fresh sensation; the scenery isn't. When I first came out here it
gripped me--as it grips you. I forgot the time. I missed my dinner."
He laughed at some reminiscence. "That didn't matter; it was worth it.
But I found it impossible to explain what had kept me. It would have
spoilt it. You know the fatuous remarks that some people would have
made... I could have talked of it to you--you would have understood.
There's something fine about this bit of coast--fine and lonely. People
don't come here much. You see, it's difficult to get at; there's no
beach, and the rocks scare off bathers. There's nothing to draw
people--except just the rugged beauty of it..."
He broke off, aware of the criticism in her eyes, their look of veiled
surprise.
"I don't believe _you_ understand," he said doubtfully.
"The love of beauty!" she said. "Oh! yes, I understand that part. It's
the inconsistency that puzzles me."
"The inconsistency!" he echoed.
"I'll tell you," she said, and added quickly: "Please don't think I am
criticising you--only when I hear you talk like that of the beauty of
nature, it becomes difficult to reconcile that idea of you with--the
earliest impression."
"I know," he said, and shifted a little on his arm in, order to get a
more direct view of her.
He was thinking of the disapproval the brown eyes had so clearly
expressed that first morning, and his subsequent wish to drive the
disapproval out of them and earn her appreciation. There followed a
brief, expectant pause before he said:
"I'm glad you spoke of that. Of course I saw what you were thinking
that morning... And in truth it is a waste of a blue day to spend it in
gambling. I've acted like a fool, and learnt a lesson. I don't suppose
I feel particularly keen about playing in future--not for a time,
anyhow--but I have a feeling I'd like to make some sort of a resolve...
Would it bore you to accept my undertaking never to play again?"
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