The Shame of Motley: being the memoir of certain transactions in the life of Lazzaro Biancomonte, of Biancomonte, sometime fool of the court of Pesaro — John Shaqi
The Shame of Motley: being the memoir of certain transactions in the life of Lazzaro Biancomonte, of Biancomonte, sometime fool of the court of PesaroSabatini, Rafael
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The Shame of Motley: being the memoir of certain transactions in the life of Lazzaro Biancomonte, of Biancomonte, sometime fool of the court of Pesaro
Well, well, it were better she should know the truth at once, and
choose such a demeanour as she considered fitting towards a Fool. I had
no stomach for the courtesies that were meant for such a man as I was
not.
“Madonna, you are in error,” I informed her, speaking slowly. “This
garb is no travesty. It is my usual raiment.”
There was a pause and I saw the slackening of her reins. No doubt, had
we been afoot she would have halted, the better to confront me.
“How?” she asked, and a new note, imperious and chill, was sounding
already in her voice. “You would not have me understand that you are by
trade a Fool?
“Allowing that I am not a fool by birth, under what other
circumstances, think you, I should be likely to wear the garments of a
Fool?”
“But this morning,” she protested, after a brief pause, “when first I
met you, you were not so arrayed.”
“I was arrayed even as I am now, in a cloak and hat and boots that hid
my motley from such undiscerning eyes as were yours and your
grooms’—all taken up with your own fears as you then were.”
There was in the tail of that a sting, as I meant there should be, for
the sudden haughtiness of her tone was cutting into me. Was I less
worthy of thanks because I was a Fool? Had I on that account done less
to serve and save her? Or was it that the action which, in a spurred
and armoured knight, had been accounted noble was deemed unworthy of
thanks in a crested, motleyed jester? It seemed, indeed, that some such
reasoning she followed, for after that we spoke no more until we were
approaching Fano.
A many times before had I felt the shame of my ignoble trade, but never
so acutely as at that moment. It had seared my soul when Giovanni
Sforza had told my story to his Court, ere he had driven me from Pesaro
with threats of hanging, and it had burned even deeper when later,
Madonna Lucrezia, upon entrusting me with her letter to her brother,
had upbraided me with the supineness that so long had held me in that
vile bondage. But deepest of all went now the burning iron of that
disgrace. For my companion’s silence seemed to argue that had she known
my quality she would have scorned the aid of which she had availed
herself to such good purpose. If any doubt of this had mercifully
remained me, her next words would have served to have resolved it. It
was when the lights of Fano gleamed ahead; we were coming to a
cross-roads, and I urged the turning to the left.
“But Fano is in front,” she remonstrated coldly.
“This way we can avoid the town and gain the Pesaro road beyond it,”
answered I, my tone as cool as hers.
“Yet may it not be that at Fano I might find an escort?”
I could have cried out at her cruelty, for in her words I could but
read my dismissal from her service. There had been no more talk of an
escort other than that which I afforded, and with which at first she
had been well content.
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