The Shame of Motley: being the memoir of certain transactions in the life of Lazzaro Biancomonte, of Biancomonte, sometime fool of the court of PesaroSabatini, Rafael
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The Shame of Motley: being the memoir of certain transactions in the life of Lazzaro Biancomonte, of Biancomonte, sometime fool of the court of Pesaro
“Messer Biancomonte,” said she coldly, “I have ever accounted you my
friend, and disinterested the motives that inspired a heart seemingly
noble to do service to a forlorn and helpless lady. It seems that I was
wrong. That the indulging of a warped and malignant spirit was the
inspiration you had to appear to befriend me.”
“Madonna, you are over-cruel,” I cried out, wounded to the very soul of
me.
“Am I so?” she asked, with a cold smile upon her ivory face. “Is it not
rather you who were cruel? Was it a fine thing to do to trick a lady
into giving her affection to a man for gifts which he did not possess?
You know in what manner of regard I held the Lord Giovanni Sforza so
long as I saw him with the eyes of reason and in the light of truth.
And you, who were my one professed friend, the one man who spoke so
loudly of dying in my service, you falsified my vision, you masked
him—either at his own and at my brother’s bidding, or else out of the
malignancy of your nature—in a garb that should render him agreeable in
my eyes. Do you realise what you have done? Does not your conscience
tell you? You have contrived that I have plighted my troth to a man
such as I believed the Lord Giovanni to be. Mother of Mercy!” she
ended, with a scorn ineffable; “when I dwell upon it now, it almost
seems that it was to you I gave my heart, for yours were the deeds that
earned my regard—not his.”
Such was the very argument that I had hugged to my starving soul, at
the time the things she spoke of had befallen, and it had consoled me
as naught in life could have consoled me. Yet now that she employed it
with such a scornful emphasis as to make me realise how far beneath her
I really was, how immeasurably beyond my reach was she, it was as much
consolation to me as confession without absolution may be to the
perishing sinner. I answered nothing. I could not trust myself to
speak. Besides, what was there that I could say?
“I summoned you back to Pesaro,” she continued pitilessly, “trusting in
your fine words and deeming honest the offer of services you made me.
Now that I know you, you are free to depart from Pesaro when you will.”
Despite my shame, I dared, at last, to raise my eyes. But her face was
averted, and she saw nothing of the entreaty, nothing of the grief that
might have told her how false were her conclusions. One thing alone
there was might have explained my actions, might have revealed them in
a new light; but that one thing I could not speak of.
I turned in silence, and in silence I quitted the room; for that, I
thought, was, after all, the wisest answer I could make.
CHAPTER XIII.
POISON
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