The Sin of Monsieur Antoine, Volume 2 (of 2) and Leone LeoniSand, George
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The Sin of Monsieur Antoine, Volume 2 (of 2) and Leone Leoni
Sand, George
French fiction -- 19th century
"If I had not lost your love," I replied, "I should not consider it a
loss to leave this palace, this luxury and this society, all of which
are hateful to me. However poor we may be, we can always live as we
lived in our chalet--there, or somewhere else, if you are tired of
Switzerland. If you still loved me, you would not be ruined; for you
would think neither of gambling nor of intemperance, nor of any of the
passions which you commemorated in an infernal toast; if you loved me,
you would pay what you owe with what you have left, and we would go and
bury ourselves and love each other in some secluded spot where I would
quickly forget what I have learned, where I would never remind you of
it, where I could not suffer because of it--if you loved me!"
"Oh! I do love you, I do love you!" he cried; "let us go! let us fly,
save me! Be my benefactress, my angel, as you have always been! Come,
and forgive me!"
He threw himself at my feet and all that the most fervent passion can
dictate, he said to me with so much warmth that I believed it--and I
shall always believe it. Leoni deceived me, degraded me, and loved me at
the same time.
One day, to evade the keen reproaches that I heaped upon him, he tried
to rehabilitate the passion of gambling.
"Gambling," he said, with the specious eloquence which had only too much
power over me, "is a passion much more energetic than love. More
fruitful in terrible dramas, it is more intoxicating, more heroic in the
acts which combine to attain its end. I must say it, alas! that while
that end is vile in appearance, the ardor is irresistible, the audacity
is sublime, the sacrifices are blind and unlimited. You must know,
Juliette, that women never inspire such passions. Gold has a power
superior to theirs. In strength, in courage, in devotion, in
perseverance, love, compared with the gambler's stake, is only a feeble
child whose efforts are deserving of pity. How many men have you seen
sacrifice to a mistress that inestimable treasure, that priceless
necessity, that condition of existence without which we feel that
existence is unendurable--_honor_? I have known very few whose devotion
goes beyond the sacrifice of life. Every day the gambler sacrifices his
honor and lives on. The gambler is keen, he is stoical, he takes his
triumph coolly, he takes his downfall coolly; he passes in a few hours
from the lowest ranks of society to the highest; in a few hours more he
goes down again to his starting-point, and all without change of
attitude or expression. In a few hours, without leaving the spot to
which his demon chains him, he incurs all the vicissitudes of life, he
passes through all the phases of fortune which represent the different
social conditions. By turns king and beggar, he climbs the long ladder
at a single stride, always calm, always self-controlled, always
sustained by his sturdy ambition, always spurred on by the intense
thirst that consumes him. What will he be an hour hence? prince or
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