The Sin of Monsieur Antoine, Volume 2 (of 2) and Leone LeoniSand, George
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The Sin of Monsieur Antoine, Volume 2 (of 2) and Leone Leoni
Sand, George
French fiction -- 19th century
"In that case, falsehood to the winds! for I feel that I am a man and I
cannot transform myself into a brute of my own free will. My father,
with all his craft and all his strength, is blind in this. He believes
what he tries to make me believe, and if he should be urged to make my
belief his own he could not do it. No interest, no passion could force
him to do it, and yet he fancies that he would not despise me on the day
that I debased myself so far as to do a dastardly thing of which he
knows that he is himself incapable! Does he feel that he must despise me
and ruin me in order to confirm himself in his inhuman theories?"
"Do not accuse him of such perversity; he is the man of his epoch--what
do I say? he is the man of all epochs. Fanaticism does not reason, and
your father is a fanatic; he still burns and tortures heretics,
believing that he is doing honor to the truth. Is the priest who comes
to us at our last hour and says; 'Believe or you will be damned!' much
wiser or more humane? Does not the powerful man who says to the poor
clerk or the unfortunate artist; 'Serve me and I will make your
fortune,' believe that he is doing him a favor, conferring a benefit on
him?"
"But that is corruption!" cried Emile.
"Very good!" rejoined the marquis; "by what means is the world governed
to-day, pray tell me? Upon what does the social structure rest? One must
needs be very strong, Emile, to protest against it; for when you do, you
must make up your mind to be sacrificed."
"Ah! if I were the only victim of my sacrifice," said the young man
sorrowfully; "but _she!_ poor, saint-like creature, must she be
sacrificed too?"
"Tell me, Emile, if she should advise you to lie, would you still love
her?"
"I don't know! I think so! Can I imagine a state of things in which I
should not love her, since I love her now?"
"You really love her, I see. Alas! I too have loved!"
"Tell me, then, if you would have sacrificed honor?"
"Perhaps so, if I had been loved."
"Oh! feeble creatures that we are!" cried Emile. "God help me! shall I
not find a counsellor, a guide, a help in my distress? Will no one give
me strength? Strength, O my God! I implore it on my knees; and never
have I prayed with greater faith and ardor: I beseech Thee, give me
strength!"
The marquis went to Emile and pressed him to his heart. Tears were
rolling down his cheeks; but he held his peace and did not help him.
Emile wept a long time on his breast and felt that he loved that man
whom each succeeding test revealed to him as an extremely sensitive
rather than really strong man. He loved him the more for it, but he
grieved that he did not find in him the energetic and powerful adviser
upon whom he had counted in his weakness. He left him at nightfall and
the marquis said nothing more to him than: "Come again to-morrow; I must
know what you decide upon. I shall not sleep until I see you in a calmer
frame of mind."
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