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Three successive phases possessed her during those dark hours of anguish
and deep bitterness.
For two days she was like a dumb, dazed thing, helpless, wide-eyed,
infinitely silent. She went about her duties like one whose soul had
been turned to stone. The dull pageant of life about her was a mere
shadow show, dusky, nebulous, and unreal. She felt like one dead,
standing beyond the tide of time, gazing back upon a paradisic past
streaked with the mysterious purple of romance.
The third day she broke down utterly and became even as a child. Her
inspired strength ebbed from her. She wept often in secret, and talked
to herself like one half-crazed by sorrow. Often she would crush roses
to her lips, bury her face in the green and quiet foliage of the trees,
cling to some rugged trunk as a child to a mother’s bosom. Apathy had
passed, and the flood-gates of grief were open. It was her first great
sorrow, her first vision of the infinite pathos of life, the first
unbending of her soul before the Eternal Being whose face shines forth
on those who suffer. She grew comforted by her own sorrow. Many hours
she spent wandering in the woods, or lying hid in the deep June grass,
watching the blood ebb from her soul’s side. Then an invisible hand
seemed to touch the wound and stanch the flow. Her old vitality
returned, a calm and quiet melancholy tinged with a wistful wisdom. At
night she would lie by the window in her cushioned chair and stare at
the sky for hours together. No season of sleep was it, but a solemn
vigil, even beneath the hill of Calvary.
The third phase succeeded a mysterious and more subtle mood in every
sense. She remembered Gabriel’s kiss upon her lips. Her yearning for the
love he had given her kindled and increased. It was a mute and piteous
stretching forth of hands, a great cry of the heart, a thirst of the
soul for the wine of life. A strange hope leaped up within her, a
passionate prophecy of comradeship that was to be. She had a dream that
they would bear much anguish together, face the world and its perils
hand-in-hand. She could have rejoiced with pale Francesca at that
season, drifting through woes that were divine, when the arms of a lover
circled her soul.
Meanwhile, with Gabriel the car of life rumbled upon rugged highways.
From mere scorn had arisen sardonic bickerings and the like. It was soon
plain to the man that the two women, wife and friend, were in league for
the tempting of his anger. It was even as though they had plotted to
goad him to some incriminating act of violence. A campaign seemed to
have been conceived against his patience.
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