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WINTER had intensified the loneliness that had fallen upon Joan
Gildersedge’s heart. Of old, life had satisfied the girl; it no longer
satisfied the woman. The lid of the casket had been lifted and the
sunlight fell on the gems within, purple, vermilion, and green. The
world had grown oracular. There was an ecstatic “Ah!” in the voice of
the wind. The vellum had been torn from the mouth of the painted jar and
odors roseate and rare were wafted up to the stars. She was ignorant in
measure, yet quick with a strange, sweet intuition that made her eyes
rich as purple clematis and bright as sunlit glass. She was even a most
fascinating drama to herself; it was a pure and beautiful thing, this
magic that had grown so silently within her heart. Like a white lily,
green-stemmed and tall, it had put forth sudden bloom, and the fragrance
hallowed the whole world.
Child that she was, her life had been lonely enough, and she had
treasured the soul-picture of the strong face that had come to her
through the summer silence. The man had spoken words to her, both of
pain and delight—pain that they should be parted, delight that it was
difficult to part. She thought of him always, yet knew no shame in the
thought. As she would have recalled a golden meadow, or a glistening
dawn, or an evening deep with amethystine silence, so she would remember
the man’s voice and the eyes that had looked at her with a mute despair.
She treasured the memory as a betrothed girl treasures the amulet that
dangles over her heart. Pure, spontaneous, golden of soul, she had an
earthly heaven in this love of hers. It was clean and spiritual, the
virgin ecstasy of a woman, rich and fragrant as the meads of paradise.
She had taken Judith for Gabriel’s wife on the day she had passed them
on the winter hill-side. The meeting had been a shock to Joan, and she
had turned home with her whole soul shuddering. She felt miserable,
humiliated, yet full of an exultant loneliness. Her love was inevitable
to her, a book of dreams, sad yet splendid. Seeing that it filled her
with transcendent instincts towards beauty, it had no sinister meaning
for her heart. The problem surprised her in measure. Reality appeared to
contradict truth. She had a species of conviction that by natural law
Gabriel was hers and she Gabriel’s.
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