The Son of His Father; vol. 3/3Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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The Son of His Father; vol. 3/3
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Fathers and sons -- Fiction
John wondered how far he believed or disbelieved what he had been
saying, and whether these dispassionate discussions of what was
formally right or wrong took away from a conscience, which could not be
very delicate or sensitive, anything of the burden. They set him
thinking too, following the career of such a being, trying to
understand. Drink--was not in the decalogue, as his visitor had said:
and John had seen enough even in his short life to know with what
facility, with what innocence of evil meaning, the first step may be
taken in that most general, most destructive of all vices--the one which
leads to so many other developments, and which involves, as that
philosopher had allowed, consequences more terrible, and penalties more
prompt and inevitable than any other. John was very strenuous against
it, almost bitter, having seen, as everyone has seen, its disastrous
effects upon both body and soul. And yet, perhaps it was true what the
other had said. Perhaps there were sins which brought no immediate evil
consequences, which yet were blacker in the sight of heaven.
He felt himself wondering, with an indulgent feeling which was strange
to him, how it was that a man who had nothing in him of the criminal
air, a man full of thoughtfulness and humorous observation, and a
knowledge of the workings of the mind, should have fallen into crime,
and should have sunk into those depths and abysses of misery where he
had no friend but Joe. A man must have reduced all the motives of human
life to their elements, he must have banished all consideration of the
outward and visible, all thoughts of the alleviations, the consolations,
the comforts and stays of existence before he could have sunk
contentedly to the bottom, and cynically, stoically, smilingly,
despairingly, made himself believe that his brutal ‘mate’ was as good as
any other, being all that remained to him.
And what, John asked himself, could remain for a convict whose world for
so many years had been limited to the interior of a prison, and who in
the course of working out his sentence had lost everything? What
remained? One would suppose the poor wretch’s family, somebody who
belonged to him, some wife or sister, or daughter. And then came his
story: It is Corban--a gift. John felt his own heart bleed at the mere
thought of this hopeless, succourless, yet uncomplaining misery. A man
who could manage still to smile in the face of all that, to maintain
still the attitude of a thinker, of an observer looking on at his own
entire destitution with impartial eyes, with that calm and full
understanding and humorous despair--the young man shuddered in the midst
of his own success and prosperity, and love and hope. Could there be a
more complete and absolute contrast? It was so great that his heart
seemed to stand still as he contemplated it--a distance as of heaven
from hell.
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