A comrade, a playmate, that was what she had needed all along, some one
in whose company to make merry and complain, some one who would confess
all his follies, his most secret sins, and then receive laughing
absolution. For whatever his crime, he was not the guilty one; his youth
was the sinner, the same sweet, mischievous youth which filled her soul
with melancholy and her body with shuddering, which dominated them both
like a beneficent yet tormenting divinity, who favoured the one and
ruined the other.
He had to be saved--saved from his own frivolity, from that fatal
condition of his soul which threatened to entangle and choke him in a
net of vulgar escapades. Rumours of the low life he was leading kept
cropping up not to be silenced, and she needed but to step inside the
servants' hall for a stream of gossip to come gushing over her like a
jet of dirty water.
Her first intervention was to be only the beginning of the great mission
she had to perform in his life. She would be his good genius, walking
before him and holding up her hands against every evil temptation, until
he had become as pure, as undesirous as herself.
Thus she dreamed to the accompaniment of the threshing machine.
The first ride beyond the castle gates, though taken without permission,
had been approved, even commended; and others were to follow. But Lilly
hesitated. She wanted to learn a decent canter, she said, before
venturing upon new roads. As a matter of fact, she was burning with
eagerness for another such hour in Von Prell's company, and merely
lacked the courage to bring it about.
The morning after that first ride he was the same cringing riding master
as before, outdoing himself in respectfulness and over-polite while
rigorous in imparting instruction. Lilly had fully expected he would
whisper a familiar word hinting at the day before, a soft "Lilly." There
was plenty of opportunity, but nothing of the sort took place.
The next few lessons went in the same fashion. Neither Lilly nor Von
Prell thought of leaving the courtyard. But one day the decree went
forth from the colonel himself.
"Enough of this hopping about on the gravel. Get out of here and air
yourselves in the wind of the fields."
"At your command, Colonel," said Von Prell, touching his cap. He rode
his horse up to Lilly's and gently steered both of them out of the gate.
Her heart stood still. She forgot to say good-by to the colonel, she
was so preoccupied with anticipation of the pleasure in store for her.
They went the same road that had brought her the great experience of the
week before.
The willows dripped with dew and at the slightest touch showered down a
rain of drops. Lilly laughed and shook herself. Instead of joining in,
he guided his horse to the edge of the road, leaving the middle to her.
"But I _want_ to get wet," she said.
"As my lady says," he replied, stiff as a poker in his stupid,
artificial respect.
Then they rode on in silence.
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