He looked at her with great questioning eyes, and she rejoiced at having
requited him so bitterly.
Wishing to observe the rules of decorum she invited him to stay for
supper, though absolutely nothing had been prepared for a guest.
"I thought I was to be permitted to take you out," he replied in a hard,
disillusioned tone.
She smiled politely.
"Just as you wish."
They descended the stairs in silence, and in silence paced along the
canal, the same way they had walked three evenings before, pressed close
against each other in drunken bliss. Then, too, they had not spoken;
but, oh, how different had their silence been!
"What have you done the last few days?" Lilly finally asked, to make
conversation.
"Nothing special. I tried to write an article for the _Münchener
Kunstzeitschrift_, on which I'm a collaborator. My subject was the
Sienna School outside of Sienna. But it didn't turn out very well. The
editor won't be satisfied."
Lilly read reproach of herself in his words. Evidently he wanted to
indicate that her entrance into his life was to blame.
And when he asked to what restaurant she would like to go, she said, her
wounded heart quivering:
"I'm neither hungry nor thirsty, and people and light would hurt me."
She wanted to add something about "not wishing to be a burden" and
similar things, but swallowed the words before they were spoken.
"If you wish to avoid people, we might go to the Tiergarten."
Lilly agreed. Had he said, "Come down into the water of the canal with
me," she would have assented even more willingly.
The hard park roads stretched before them in the light of the electric
lamps like long galleries with garish walls between which one was forced
to run the gauntlet. The pedestrians coming toward Lilly and Dr.
Rennschmidt measured the tall couple with cold, intrusive curiosity.
"It's worse here than in the crowded streets," said Lilly.
Her aching, despondent heart fluttered with excitement
He pointed to a side path leading into darkness; and without speaking
they dipped into solitude.
Above the towering masses of branches the cloudy sky, looking like a
metal whose brilliance has worn off, reflected the invisible sea of city
lights. Through the lattice work of the leafless bushes gleamed the
lamps lining the more public ways; and on all sides the gongs of the
electric trams, shooting hither and thither, sounded like fire alarums.
But there in the interior of the park, quiet and darkness prevailed.
Lilly felt she had sunk into a black sea of mournfulness.
The silence between them became intolerable.
Suddenly Dr. Rennschmidt stepped in front of Lilly and blocked the way.
"What's the matter?" she asked, startled.
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