While she drew him along the roads and streets, she let loose upon him
her soul's tempest in a delirium of happy prattle.
Hadn't he an inkling of what he was that he should have harboured such
doubts? She had belonged to him from the very first instant. A miracle
had taken place in her as well as in him. Never had she known what love
was until the day when the squirrels chipped over their heads. The rest
of her life no longer existed for her. _He_ alone was there. He and his
eyes. He and his mouth. He and his will. He and the great, glorious work
which she would toil for like a slave; which she would enrich with her
love, because from old pictures and poems he would gather nothing but
the grey ashes of love. Genuine, young blissful love, _she_ would teach
him, she, Lilly Czepanek, who had waited for him ever since she could
remember, who belonged to him from the beginning, from the beginning of
time, you might say. He could see God had destined them for each other,
because they both thought they had met before, whereas they had never
met in life. At most in dreams. She had seen him in her dreams always,
always. Exactly as in fairy tales.
"Perhaps it is a fairy tale. Tell me, tell me, you whose first name I do
not even know. But no matter. Tell me, it's not a mere fairy tale."
But he said nothing. He walked along like a somnambulist. He followed
her up the steps mechanically, and remained standing stiffly in the
centre of the drawing-room, into which she had led him. When the lights
were turned on, he looked about with a shy, searching glance, as if he
had never seen the room, and could not recollect how he had come there.
She clung to him, and said he should sit quite still and rest, and close
those eyes of his. Then she helped him remove his overcoat, and pressed
him into a seat and kissed him on both "those eyes" until his lids
closed and he reclined there as if actually asleep.
"Now wait, beloved, until I come back."
She ran joyously into the kitchen to order Adele to prepare supper
hastily. Then she hurried into the bedroom, where she changed her
rustling silk dress for a light blue tea-gown, turquoise-studded, in
which, as Richard was wont to say gallantly, she was Venus herself. She
arranged her hair more loosely and discarded her rings The only jewel
she left was a gold bracelet.
Adele, the sulky, had transformed the table as if by magic into a bower
of flowers, and her face was wreathed in smiles; for at last there were
human goings-on in this respectably indecent house. The plated
silverware gleamed on the fresh damask, and the aroma of golden bananas
came from the fruit basket.
He might be content. Lilly was. Her dread had disappeared. She felt
well-nigh victorious. But her happiness was too humble to be totally
unqualified.
Her one pride, greedy for recognition, was that she had so much, so much
to give him.
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