The Southern Literary Messenger, Vol. I., No. 3, November, 1834Various
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The Southern Literary Messenger, Vol. I., No. 3, November, 1834
Various
American literature -- 19th century -- Periodicals
Before the appointed time, Heywood returned. He had undergone a
purification, which somewhat improved his looks, and he bore no
evidence of having increased his potations. We had a long, and to us
highly interesting conversation; but Heywood was not the man he had
been; the mind--that glorious mind had suffered in the wreck. It is
true he was occasionally eloquent, grand in his conceptions, pouring
out burning thoughts, and exhibiting amazing knowledge; but there was a
want of solidity and continuity in his discourse, and there were abrupt
starts from deep pathos, when he touched upon his situation, to a wild
and reckless jocularity that made me shudder. I had determined in my
own mind, difficult and delicate as I felt the task to be, to strive to
the utmost to reclaim him. It was a sacred duty devolving on me as a
friend; it was a conscientious duty belonging to me as a man; and I
felt if I could turn such a being from the path of evil, and lead him
once again to the high and honorable station he was by his talents so
eminently entitled to, it would be a deed whose reward even here would
be inappreciable, and might plead against a thousand errors at the
judgment seat of a righteous God. It required great tact, however, to
approach the subject, for his sensitiveness was very keen, and I knew
if I offended him there, I should lose my hold upon him; therefore I
waited until he himself should give me an opportunity of entering on
the subject. None occurred that night. Occasionally, as I have said, he
would advert to himself and his present miserable situation, but in
such a manner as deprived me of courage to speak upon the subject. At
one time he observed, when Drayton's name had been mentioned, "It is
somewhat strange S----, that man seems to have been born to supplant
me. Who would have thought it? The quiet, easy, dull Charles Drayton,
to supplant Morriss Heywood! Why, in the exuberance of my youthful
vanity, I should have thought my wings beat an atmosphere too refined
and rare, to sustain his heavy weight; that my eyes looked unwinking on
a light that would have seared his duller optics. And yet he reached
me, and he passed me. And while I descended in rapid whirls, until I
grovelled in the very dust, he sustained his flight and held aloft his
station. Yes, he supplanted me in my profession--supplanted me in
public life--supplanted me in love. Ha! ha! ha! It is a strange tale to
tell. What would our college mates say to it? What _does_ the world say
to it? I know what it says. No matter,
'They can't but say I had the crown;
I was not fool.'
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