Youth came back to her with the thought, and she sat straighter still in
the trap, holding her unused whip at a jaunty angle across the elastic
bar of the reins. The good horse swung homewards in a generous stride;
the bright wheels of the dog-cart flashed through the dull country like
a whirled autumn leaf. The passers-by found a special sweetness in her
ready smile, because it reflected the secret in her heart. As they went
on their way they said what they always said,--that it was a marvel she
had not married long ago.
Yet the secret, fair as it was, had also the folly of all great
ventures, since, in laying her hands upon the future, she risked the
memory that had coloured her whole life. To bring Geordie home might
mean nothing but disappointment for herself, sordid disappointment and
shame for a mis-spent girlish dream. Things would be different, at the
very best; part of the memory would have to go. But the chief people to
be considered were the old folks who had so often been the footballs of
fate. Nothing that she might fear on her own account should stand in
the way of this sudden fulfilment for a frustrated old man, this light
to the eyes for an old woman going blind. In any case May was the sort
that would tenderly handle the cracked and mended pot right up to the
moment of dissolution at the well. No disappointment that Geordie could
bring her would remain sordid for very long. Out of her shattered idols
her wisdom and humour would gather her fresh beauty; clear-eyed,
uplifting affection for youthful worship, and pity and tenderness for
passion.
It was true that Sarah had already rejected her offer,--brutally,
almost, in her determination that May should suffer no further for her
son. But May had already almost forgotten the rough sentences which for
the time being had slammed the opening door in her eager face. Sarah was
strong, she knew, but she herself, because of love in the past and pity
in the present, felt stronger still. She said to herself, smiling, that
sooner or later she would find an argument that would serve. Sooner or
later Sarah would yield, and share with secret delight in the surprise
that they would so gaily prepare for the old man. Sooner or later the
boat would put out from port that carried the lost lad,--Geordie, with
his pockets empty but his heart full, and every nerve of him reaching
towards his home.
Now she had turned the end of the bay, and was running along the flat
road that hugged the curve of the shore. Below on her right were the
sands, almost within flick of her whip, with the river-channel winding
its dull length a hundred yards away. Beyond it, the sand narrowed into
the arm of the marsh, until the eye caught the soft etching of the
Thornthwaite farm, set on the faint gold and green of the jutting land.
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