And all the time there had been Eliza making part of her life, from the
plump little girl whom people stopped to admire to the bold intruder at
the altar-rail. Looking back, she could see herself as a stiff and
grave-eyed child, grimly regarding the round-faced giggler from the
start. Even then she had always been the dumb man in the stocks, of
whom the street-urchin that was Eliza made mock as she danced and
played. Only once had she ever definitely got the better of her, and it
had had to last her all her life. Eliza had had many lovers, drawn by
the counterfeit kindliness which hid her callous soul, but when she had
chosen at last, it was Simon who was her choice. Perhaps the one gleam
of romance in Eliza’s life had been when she looked at Simon ... and
Simon had looked away. Quite early he had fixed his affections on
Sarah, and during their long courtship he had never swerved. Plain,
business-like Sarah had drawn him after her as the moon draws the
willing tide....
She began to put away the things she had bought in Witham, stowing them
in a cupboard between the pot-rail and the door. During the morning she
had felt royally that she was buying half the town, but now she saw how
small her share of the marketing had been. There was a troubled feeling
at the back of her mind that something had been missed, and even though
she was sure of her purchases, she counted them again. Afterwards, she
stood muttering worriedly through the list ... tea, candles, a reel of
cotton ... and the rest. And then, suddenly, without any help from the
candles and cotton, she remembered what it was, and smiled at the
childish memory that would not stay asleep.
More than twenty years, she reminded herself,--and yet she still looked
for the fairing that Geordie had brought her on Martinmas Day! There
had scarcely been any special season,--Christmas, Whitsun, Easter or
Mid-Lent,--but he had remembered to mark it by some frolicsome gift. He
had always withheld it from her until the last, and then had stood by
her laughing while she unwrapped some foolish monkey on dancing wires.
All the time he was saying how splendid the fairing was going to
be,--"It’s gold, mother, real gold,--as bright as the King’s crown!"
And when she had opened it, she would pretend to be cast down, and then
put it snugly away and say it was "real grand!"
Jim had had his fairings for her, too, but she was trying her very
hardest not to remember those. Jim’s had been prettier and more
thoughtful,--often of real use, but she had long since forgotten what
the things were like. A mug with her name on it, a handkerchief, a
brooch,--long ago broken or lost, or even given away. But every
ridiculous object of Geordie’s was under lock and key, with even a bit
of camphor to keep the monkey from the moth....
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