Then the knocking began, the terrible brazen knocking which soulless
iron makes on the unresponsive door of an empty house. It was as if
whoever knocked frightened himself by the knocking, and tried to beat
away his fear with still louder blows. But to the woman who tried to
pretend that the house was really empty it was more terrible still. It
seemed to take on the sound of a summons to the soul itself to issue
forth. The noise of it flooded the place, echoed its way upstairs and
into far rooms, so that strange voices answered it sharply from wood and
stone. The heavy, storm-tried walls were suddenly no more than paper,
so that the knocking became folly when a push would have forced them in.
It seemed to Sarah that they must hear it from end to end of the marsh,
across at the ’Ship,’ and out to the hidden edge of sea. She wondered
why Simon did not come running, and the dog break into hoarse barks, for
even in the far shippon they must surely hear. But there was only that
great knocking in all the world, cheerful, impatient, or resigned by
turn. It paused at moments, but only as the passing-bell pauses, Sarah
thought, waiting to speak its single word afresh.
The noise had swept away in a moment both the false serenity of hate and
the almost falser calm of that dwelling memory of love. From the
respite, indeed, the live passion seemed to have sunk, as it were, on
its haunches for a fiercer leap. She could not think clearly or control
her limbs under the sudden impact of its spring. It seemed to fling
itself on her as she had seen the tides in the winter crash against the
wall. She, too, went under as if the water had beaten her down, and the
noise at the door became the blows of the waves and the roar of the
dragged beach.
She had that impulse to laughter which comes with long-expected woe, as
if the gods were guilty of bathos when they stooped at last to strike.
Scorn is the first sensation of those who seem to have watched the
springs of action long before the hour. Sudden sorrows, quick blows
have a majesty of their own, as if the gifts of the gods made for honour
in good or ill. But long-deferred trouble, like suspended joy, has a
meaner quality in fulfilment, and a subtle humiliation in its ache.
That when the gods come they come quickly is true for both libations
from the emptied cup. Royal sorrows, like royal joys, fall swift as
thunderbolts from heaven.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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