In this long day of Simon’s and Sarah’s nothing was stranger than the
varying strata of glamour and gloom through which in turn they passed.
Their days and weeks were, as a rule, mere grey blocks of blank,
monotonous life, imperceptibly lightened or further shadowed by the
subtle changes of the sky. But into these few hours so closely packed
with dreadful humiliations and decisions, so much accumulated unkindness
and insult and cold hate, there kept streaming upon them shafts of light
from some centre quite unknown. For Simon there had been the unexpected
stimulant of his Witham success, and later the new interest in life
which Will’s proposal had seemed to offer. For Sarah there was the
wistful pleasure of her morning with May, as well as the unlawful but
passionate pleasure of her present position. The speed of the changes
kept them over-strung, so that each as it came found them more sensitive
than the last. They were like falling bodies dropping by turn through
cloud and sunlit air. They were like total wrecks on some darkened sea,
catching and losing by turn the lights of an approaching vessel.
The slow clock dragged the protesting minutes on, and still no one
disturbed her and the dream widened and grew. Tea would be brought in
soon, she told herself in the dream,--strong, expensive, visitor’s tea,
freshly boiled and brewed. The silver teapot would be queening it over
the tray, flanked by steaming scones and an oven-new, home-made cake.
Eliza herself would appear to entertain her guest, always with that new
note of reverence in her voice. When the door opened they would hear
another voice,--Geordie’s, laughing and talking in some room beyond.
All the happy young voices of the house would mingle with his, but
always the youngest and happiest would be Geordie’s own. Hearing that
voice, she would make mock of herself for ever having feared Eliza’s
tongue, still more for ever having cared enough to honour her with hate.
A small thing then would be the great Eliza, in spite of her size,
beside the mother for whom the dead had been made alive. She would talk
with Eliza as the gods talk when they speak with the humble human from
invisible heights. So strong was the vision that she found herself
framing the godlike sentences with gracious ease. The silver teaspoons
clinked against the cups, and the visitor’s tea was fragrant in the
musty room. She spread a linen handkerchief across her knee ... a snowy
softness against her silken knee.... And always, always, as the meal
progressed, the voice of her ecstasy sang in her happy ear....
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