“The thing was true then! It was worse even than he had imagined! For
in the night, while he had slept, it seemed to have altered, and what
had been vague was now clear. His forehead grew damp, and he felt a
kind of sickness, as he glanced furtively from side to side to see if
anyone were watching. He crossed over to the shady side of the street,
and hurried home, but from that hour he began to be haunted by the
dread of discovery. Day by day this fear increased, till at last it
became almost impossible for him to stir out of his room when the sun
shone or when the lamps were lit. And if he did go out he slunk along
back streets, and where there was darkness he chose the darkness.
“And yet he had done nothing evil in the past. This curse had dropped
upon him as if out of the clouds; had struck him down like some hideous
secret disease. In the night he would wake up in agony and pray, but
he knew, he always knew, that it was hopeless. He dreaded going to
bed and to sleep, for when he slept it was to become at once what his
shadow proclaimed him. Again and again in dreams he committed horrible
crimes, and again and again, with his victim’s shrieks still ringing
in his ears, he awoke. Then a subtle temptation entered his mind. It
seemed to him that if he could gratify his shadow once it might leave
him in peace. He saw it, like a crouching beast, drinking its fill of
blood, and then lying down, satiated and quiet. If he did not gratify
it detection was certain, sooner or later. He no longer left his room.
“But every evening, when he was alone and unlikely to be disturbed, he
would lock his door and spend hours gazing at his shadow. He loathed
it, it filled him with horror, but he could not resist the desire to
watch it, to watch its growth, which was like that of some unclean
fungus. In the brilliant light he would stand staring at it, putting
it through its ugly pantomime, for he now began to see it at work; and
there were times when he could feel it, clammy and cold,――when he felt
its threatening fingers clutching at his own throat.
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