The Standard BearerCrockett, S. R. (Samuel Rutherford)
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The Standard Bearer
Crockett, S. R. (Samuel Rutherford)
Covenanters -- Fiction; Scotland -- History -- 17th century -- Fiction
Never did I meet such a look. It seemed to be compound of life and
death, of the love earthly and the love eternal.
“Good friends,” she said, calmly turning to them as though she had been
the minister and accustomed to speak in the hearing of men, “I have
summoned my love hastily. I have somewhat to say to him. Will you leave
us alone for ten minutes? I have a word to say in his ear alone. It is
not strange, is it, at such a time?”
And she smiled brightly upon them, while I stood dumb and astonished.
For I knew not whence the lass, ordinarily so still and fond, had gotten
her language. She spoke as one who has long made up his mind, and to
whom fit and prepared words come without effort.
When they were gone she sat down on the chair again, and, taking my
hand, motioned me to kneel down beside her.
Then she laid her hand to my hair and touched it lightly.
“Quintin,” she said, “you and I have not long to sit sweethearting
together. I must say quickly that which I have to say. I am, you will
peradventure think, a bold, immodest lass. You remember it was I who
courted you, compelled you, followed you, spied on you. _But then, you
see, I loved you._ Now I want to ask you to marry me!”
“Nay,” she said, interrupting my words more with her hand than her
voice, “misjudge me not. I am to die--to die soon. It has been revealed
to me that I have bartered the life eternal for this. And, since so it
is, I desire to drink the sweetness of it to the cup’s bottom. I have
made a bargain with God. I have prayed, and I have promised that if He
will put it in your heart to wed with me for an hour, I will take with
gratitude and thankfulness all that lies waiting over there, beyond the
Black River.”
She waved her hand down toward the Dee water.
I smiled and nodded hopefully and comfortingly to her. At that moment I
felt that nothing was too great for me to do. And it mattered little
when I married her. I had ever meant to be true to her--save in that
which I could not help, the love of my heart of hearts, which, having
been another’s from the beginning was not mine to give.
Jean Gemmell smiled.
“I thank you, Quintin,” she said, “this is like you, and better than I
deserve. Had it been a matter of days or weeks I would never have
troubled you. But ’tis only the matter of an hour or two!”
She paused a little, stroking my head fondly.
“And afterwards you will say, remembering me, ‘Poor young thing, she
loved me, loved me truly!’ Ah, Quintin, I think I should have made you a
good wife. Love helps all things, they say. Put your hand below my head,
Quintin. Tell me again that you love me. Sweetheart” (now she was
whispering), “do you know I have to tell you all that you should say to
me? Is that fair--that I should make love to you and to myself too?”
I groaned aloud.
“God help us, Jean,” I said, “we shall yet be happy together.” And at
the moment I meant it. I felt that a lifetime of sacrifice would not
make up for such love.
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