Ramsay’s face was white and drawn. He came out in the room only a
little beyond the window, his back against the red and gold Renaissance
curtain. It framed him with its long lines falling behind him. He
seemed to stand between in the folds.
“Please!” he said. “Don’t get me anything.”
He might have been embroidered on the satin of the curtains. He was
moveless and beautiful in his pallor and silence; nevertheless he was
only a modern figure, a modern man.
“How could you? How could you?” she breathed. “I did not think you
would come to-night and yet I hoped you would”--and she felt her voice
desert her--“and explain.”
He repeated the word “explain” with a laugh.
“I came back because I wanted to see you--for no other reason.”
She interrupted him with a passionate gesture as though she would
dismiss her memories and his.
“To see _me_ again! _What_ can this matter?” In spite of herself she
cried, “How horrible! How horrible!” and she covered her face.
He understood that she hated herself because he had taken her in
his arms. He looked quietly at her from his greater height, and his
expression did not indicate that all day he had been wandering like a
hunted animal.
“This is the most dreadful thing that has ever come into my life! Oh!
Why _did_ you come back?” she cried.
“To see _you_--just to see _you_.”
There was a silence between them for a second, and the clock in the
hall outside struck one. Ramsay said:
“You are sick with disgust. You are full of regret at--_our love_.”
“You think of that first! You think of that first of all!”
“First--second--last and above everything.”
“After what I saw this morning every word like that is an insult,” Mrs.
Hereford said.
Ramsay came forward and caught her hands, saying tensely:
“And the look I saw on your face to-day when you came in the gift room?
You use the word insult. What was the look I saw on your face when you
came into the room?”
She murmured: “Explain, you must explain, you _must_!”
He let her hands fall.
“I have nothing to explain.
“You knew I was poor. A poor man has debts--gambling debts perhaps.
Then there are women in men’s lives who make dreadful scandals--there
is blackmail. A chap does things in desperation and is not all bad. I
have known men to do such things. But from the moment I saw that look
on your face to-day, the look which said you thought I was a thief, the
world stopped for me.” He threw back his head and gave a little laugh.
“It will never go on as it was before.”
Here she put out her hand as if about to take his, but let it fall.
“I’ve nothing to explain. The fact that for the tenth of a second
you believed me a thief makes everything else of no value. Of course
now”--there was a break in his voice--“you don’t even believe in my
love!” His voice was low, but there was a ring in it that she never
forgot. “It doesn’t make any difference any more. I’ve tramped with
that horror all day.
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