“I’m afraid of that man,” he said, in a whispering, hissing tone.
“Vicars, get me home; get me out of sight. He’s an officer. Vicars, I’m
not safe with that man!”
“Hold your tongue, can’t you, Mr. Dolff, till I get him away,” cried
Vicars, pushing past. And in a moment the pair had disappeared within
the mysterious door, which swung after them, noiseless, closing without
a sound.
Dolff was left, pale and threatening, with Meredith and his two sisters
facing him. That they should know what he did not filled Dolff with a
sort of frenzy; and yet how could he continue to say that he did not
know?
“I wish,” cried Julia, stamping her foot, “that you two who know such a
lot would go away, and not speak to Dolff and me. You don’t belong to
us--at least Charley Meredith doesn’t belong to us, and Gussy thinks
more of him than of all of us together. Oh, Dolff, it only matters to
you and me! I believe,” cried Julia, catching her brother’s arm, “that
old madman’s our father, Dolff. I believe he is our father. It’s
terrible, it’s odious, and I will never forgive mamma. Why isn’t he
dead? as she said he was. Dolff--oh, don’t mind it so dreadfully! I
don’t mind it so dreadfully: he’s only mad--and that’s not wicked after
all.”
Dolff pushed past them all to where his mother sat in that temple of
brightness and comfort, in her chair. Everything that could be done for
her convenience and consolation in her incapacity was about her. She sat
there as in a sanctuary, the centre of the most peaceful house. And
there she had sat for years with the air of knowing nothing different,
fearing nothing, meeting every day that rose and every night that fell
with the same serene composure--a woman with nothing to conceal, nothing
to alarm her, occupied only with little cares of the family and
sympathies with others, and the knitting with which she was always busy.
To look at her, and to think of the burden that had been for so long
upon her shoulders, unknown, undreamed of, was a problem beyond the
reach of imagination. Never a line upon her brow, and all that mystery
and misery behind.
The room, usually so orderly, was a little disarranged to-night, the
chairs pushed about anyhow, and one lying where it fell, which had been
pushed over as Vicars led his patient out. And she had sat there
patiently and listened to the voices in the hall, knowing that another
encounter was taking place--knowing that her son was desperate, that he
had it in him to be violent, that it was enough to touch that secret
spring of madness which, for aught she could tell, the son of a mad
father might have inherited. Perhaps, had she been scanned at that
moment by any one more able to judge than Dolff, the signs of a conflict
might have been seen in her eyes, but to Dolff she appeared precisely as
she always was in her incredible calm. He placed himself in front of her
with the air of an angry man demanding an explanation from his inferior.
“Is that man my father?” he said.
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