The name of M. Termonde occurred several times in the earlier letters,
and, when I came to the eleventh, I found it mentioned in a way which
brought tears to my eyes, set my hands shaking, and made my heart leap
as at the sound of a cry of sharp agony. In the pages which he had
written during the night--the writing showed how deeply he was
moved--the husband, hitherto so self-restrained, acknowledged to his
sister, his kind and faithful confidante, that he was jealous. He was
jealous, and of whom? Of that very man who was destined to fill his
place at our fireside, to give a new name to her who had been Madame
Cornélis; of the man with cat-like ways, with pale eyes, whom my
childish instinct had taught me to regard with so precocious and so
fixed a hate. He was jealous of Jacques Termonde. In his sudden
confession he related the growth of this jealousy, with the bitterness
of tone that relieves the heart of misery too long suppressed. In that
letter, the first of a series which death only was destined to
interrupt, he told how far back was the date of his jealousy, and how it
awoke to life with his detection of one look cast at my mother by
Termonde. He told how he had at once suspected a dawning passion on the
part of this man, then that Termonde had gone away on a long journey,
and that he, my father, had attributed his absence to the loyalty of a
sincere friend, to a noble effort to fight from the first against a
criminal feeling. Termonde came back; his visits to us were soon
resumed, and they became more frequent than before. There was every
reason for this; my father had been his chum at the École de Droit, and
would have chosen him to be his best man at his marriage had not
Termonde's diplomatic functions kept him out of France at the time. In
this letter and the following ones my father acknowledged that he had
been strongly attached to Termonde, so much so, indeed, that he had
considered his own jealousy as an unworthy feeling and a sort of
treachery. But it is all very well to reproach one's self for a passion,
it is there in our hearts all the same, tearing and devouring them.
After Termonde's return, my father's jealousy increased, with the
certainty that the man's love for the wife of his friend was also
growing; and yet, the unhappy husband did not think himself entitled to
forbid him the house. Was not his wife the most pure and upright of
women? Her very inclination to mysticism and exaggerated devotion,
although he sometimes found fault with her for it, was a pledge that she
would never yield to anything by which her conscience could be stained.
Besides, Termonde's assiduity was accompanied by such evident, such
absolute respect, that it afforded no ground for reproach. What was he
to do? Have an explanation with his wife--he who could not bring himself
to enter upon the slightest discussion with her? Require her to decline
to receive his own friend? But, if she yielded, he would have deprived
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