hypotheses, however improbable, I had no right to draw back, I was bound
to push my suspicions to their extreme. "If I were to go to M. Massol,"
I reflected, "to place this correspondence in his hands and to consult
him, would he regard that revelation of our life, of the feelings of the
victim and of those of my mother's second husband, as a document to be
neglected?" No--a thousand times no--so strongly was I convinced of
this, that I would not have dared to take the letters to him. I should
have been afraid to set the bloodhounds of justice on this track. He and
I had pondered and studied so long that crucial question--who could
possibly have had an interest in the crime? If he had thought of my
stepfather, he had never spoken of him. What indication did he possess
which could have authorised him for a moment to raise so great a
disturbance in my mind? None; but I could now furnish him with such an
indication, and my instinct told me that it was very grave, and of
formidable significance. How could I have prevented myself from
fastening upon it, turning it over and over in my mind, and abandoning
myself completely to its absorbing suggestions?
A strange contrast existed between the tempest within my breast and the
profound quiet of the house of the dead. My life glided on in apparent
monotony; but in reality it was one of torment and perplexity. I rose
late and took my breakfast alone, always waited on by Julie. I had,
however, as companions in the silent room, Don Juan, the watch-dog, and
two half-bred Angora cats, given by me to my aunt long ago, and named
respectively, Boule-de-Poil and Pierrot. I fed these creatures, each in
its turn, reminding myself of Robinson Crusoe, the beloved hero of my
childhood, and the scenes in which the solitary man is described as
sitting at his table surrounded by his private menagerie. The cats
hissed when Don Juan came near them, and if I neglected them they put
out their claws and tore the table-cloth, poking their prying little
noses up at me. The old clock ticked solemnly, as it had done for more
years than I knew of, and there I sat, amid these homely surroundings,
discussing with myself the arguments for and against my stepfather's
guilt. I put the matter to myself thus: "The great objection to be made
to an inquiry is the established alibi; the alibi attaches to the
physical data of the crime, and in every analysis of this kind the
series of moral data exists alongside of the series of physical data. If
these do not coincide, there is room for doubt, and the chief care of a
clever assassin is to create that doubt. If the appearance of material
impossibility were to prevent investigation, how many 'instructions'
would be abandoned?" When these thoughts pressed upon me too heavily, I
rose and walked towards the wood. Around me spread the vast silence of
the afternoon in winter. The dry leaves crackled under my feet, while my
mind still toiled over the argument for and against. Granted that M.
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