me in the light of an infinitely dangerous being. He asked a great many
questions, and he spoke very deliberately, very temperately, unless he
were in a certain singular mood like that in which he had intoxicated
himself with his own words, on the occasion of our drive in his coupé.
Then he would talk on and on, with a nervous, sneering laugh, and give
utterance to theories so cynical, and to ideas and conceits so peculiar
that the whole thing made me shudder. He had, for instance, an
extraordinary knowledge of all questions relating to medical
jurisprudence. A case, which made a great sensation, was tried during
that winter, and in the course of an animated discussion in which
several persons took part, my stepfather chanced to mention the date of
the arrest of the notorious criminal Conty de la Pommerais. I verified
the statement; it was correct. How strangely full of things connected
with crime his mind must have been, and how strongly this bore upon
certain data, for which I was indebted to my interviews with M. Massol!
For, was it not an instance of the all-absorbing, single thought which
the old judge declared he had discerned in the great majority of
murderers, that which leads them to return to the scene of murder, to
approach the body of their victim when it is exposed in a public place,
to read every line of the newspapers, in which details of their crimes
are to be found, to follow the record of deeds similar to their own with
eager attention? At other times, my stepfather fell into a deep silence
from which it was impossible to rouse him, and he smoked cigar after
cigar while the silent mood was upon him, notwithstanding the reiterated
prohibition of the doctors. Tobacco by day, morphine by night--what
suffering was it he tried to baffle by such an abuse of narcotics? Was
it the pain of his malady, or torture of another kind, such as I
imagined when I gave myself up to my tragic conjectures? Again, he had
intervals of lassitude so great that even my presence could not rouse
him--the lassitude of a man who has reached the limit of what he can
suffer, and who can feel no more, because he has felt too much. I found
him in this condition two or three times, alone in the twilight, so
utterly sunk in weariness that he took no notice of me when I seated
myself opposite to him and gazed at him, also in silence. I was tempted
to cry out to him: "Confess, confess, confess at once!" And I should not
have been surprised had he surrendered, allowed his secret to escape
him, and answered: "It is true." On these occasions I felt the inanity
of the small facts I had so carefully collected. What if he were not
guilty? I kept silence, a prey to the fever of doubt which had been
devouring me for weeks, and at last he emerged from his taciturnity to
talk to me of my mother. Why? Was he thinking of her so intently just
then because he was very ill and believed that he was on the eve of an
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