He reads charters of nobility on parchment, from which the seal of Sweden
hangs, large and potent, stamped in red wax and kept in a turned wooden
box. He examines old coats of arms with lilies on a white field and
griffins on a blue. Such things he understands, and such he interprets
with ease. And he reads over and over again speeches and obituary notices
of the noble counts Dohna, where their exploits are compared to those of
the heroes of Israel and the gods of Greece.
Those old things have always given him pleasure. But he does not trouble
himself to think a second time of his young wife.
Countess Märta has said a word which killed the love in him: “She took
you for your money.” No man can bear to hear such a thing. It quenches
all love. Now it was quite one to him what happened to the young woman.
If his mother could bring her to the path of duty, so much the better.
Count Henrik had much admiration for his mother.
This misery went on for a month. Still it was not such a stormy and
agitated time as it may sound when it is all compressed into a few
written pages. Countess Elizabeth was always outwardly calm. Once only,
when she heard that Gösta Berling might be dead, emotion overcame her.
But her grief was so great that she had not been able to preserve her
love for her husband that she would probably have let Countess Märta
torture her to death, if her old housekeeper had not spoken to her one
evening.
“You must speak to the count, countess,” she said. “Good heavens, you are
such a child! You do not perhaps know yourself, countess, what you have
to expect; but I see well enough what the matter is.”
But that was just what she could not say to her husband, while he
cherished such a black suspicion of her.
That night she dressed herself quietly, and went out. She wore an
ordinary peasant-girl’s dress, and had a bundle in her hand. She meant to
run away from her home and never come back.
She did not go to escape pain and suffering. But now she believed that
God had given her a sign that she might go, that she must preserve her
body’s health and strength.
She did not turn to the west across the lake, for there lived one whom
she loved very dearly; nor did she go to the north, for there many of her
friends lived; nor towards the south, for, far, far to the south lay her
father’s home, and she did not wish to come a step nearer; but to the
east she went, for there she knew she had no home, no beloved friend, no
acquaintance, no help nor comfort.
She did not go with a light step, for the thought that she had not yet
appeased God. But still she was glad that she hereafter might bear the
burden of her sin among strangers. Their indifferent glances should rest
on her, soothing as cold steel laid on a swollen limb.
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