Soon the people’s meaning became clear to him. He understood that they
pointed to him as the origin of their misfortune. It was in wrath at
him God let the earth languish. He tried to laugh at them and their
branches; but when it had gone on a week, he laughed no more. Oh, what
childishness! How can those dry sticks injure him? He understood that
the hate of years sought an opportunity of expressing itself. What of
that?—he was not used to love.
For all this he did not become more gentle. He had perhaps wished to
improve after the old lady had visited him; now he could not. He would
not be forced to it.
But gradually the pile grew too strong for him. He thought of it
continually, and the feeling which every one cherished took root also in
him. He watched the pile, counted the branches which had been added each
day. The thought of it encroached upon all other thoughts. The pile was
destroying him.
Every day he felt more and more the people were right. He grew thin
and very old in a couple of weeks. He suffered from remorse and
indisposition. But it was as if everything depended on that pile. It was
as if his remorse would grow silent, and the weight of years be lifted
off him, if only the pile would stop growing.
Finally he sat there the whole day and watched; but the people were
without mercy. At night there were always new branches thrown on.
* * * * *
One day Gösta Berling passed along the road. The Broby clergyman sat at
the roadside, old and haggard. He sat and picked out the dry sticks and
laid them together in rows and piles, playing with them as if he were a
child again. Gösta was grieved at his misery.
“What are you doing, pastor?” he says, and leaps out of the carriage.
“Oh, I am sitting here and picking. I am not doing anything.”
“You had better go home, and not sit here in the dust.”
“It is best that I sit here.”
Then Gösta Berling sits down beside him.
“It is not so easy to be a priest,” he says after a while.
“It is all very well down here where there are people,” answers the
clergyman. “It is worse up there.”
Gösta understands what he means. He knows those parishes in Northern
Värmland where sometimes there is not even a house for the clergyman,
where there are not more than a couple of people in ten miles of country,
where the clergyman is the only educated man. The Broby minister had been
in such a parish for over twenty years.
“That is where we are sent when we are young,” says Gösta. “It is
impossible to hold out with such a life; and so one is ruined forever.
There are many who have gone under up there.”
“Yes,” says the Broby clergyman; “a man is destroyed by loneliness.”
“A man comes,” says Gösta, “eager and ardent, exhorts and admonishes, and
thinks that all will be well, that the people will soon turn to better
ways.”
“Yes, yes.”
“But soon he sees that words do not help. Poverty stands in the way.
Poverty prevents all improvement.”
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