Here he paused; his face was very red, and the perspiration was
oozing in great drops from every pore. He drew forth the huge red silk
handkerchief, and mopped his cheeks, his nose, and his forehead; then
lifted his head and stole a quick glance at Martha. Something in his
face puzzled her, and yet a sudden presentiment of his true state of
feeling flashed across her mind. She still sat, looking steadily at him,
and for a few moments did not speak.
“Well?” he stammered.
“Alfred Barton,” she said, “I must ask you one question, do you love
me?”
He seemed to feel a sharp sting. The muscles of his mouth twitched; he
bit his lip, sank his head again, and murmured,--
“Y-yes.”
“He does not,” she said to herself. “I am spared this humiliation. It is
a mean, low nature, and fears mine--fears, and would soon hate. He shall
not see even so much of me as would be revealed by a frank, respectful
rejection. I must punish him a little for the deceit, and I now see how
to do it.”
While these thoughts passed rapidly through her brain, she waited until
he should again venture to meet her eye. When he lifted his head, she
exclaimed,--
“You have told an untruth! Don't turn your head away; look me in the
face, and hear me tell you that you do not love me--that you have not
come to me of your own desire, and that you would rather ten thousand
times I should say No, if it were not for a little property of mine! But
suppose I, too, were of a similar nature; suppose I cared not for what
is called love, but only for money and lands such as you will inherit;
suppose I found the plans of my father and your father very shrewd and
reasonable, and were disposed to enter into them--what then?”
Alfred Barton was surprised out of the last remnant of his hypocrisy.
His face, so red up to this moment, suddenly became sallow; his chin
dropped, and an expression of amazement and fright came into the eyes
fixed on Martha's.
The game she was playing assumed a deeper interest; here was something
which she could not yet fathom. She saw what influence had driven him to
her, against his inclination, but his motive for seeming to obey, while
dreading success, was a puzzle. Singularly enough, a slight feeling of
commiseration began to soften her previous contempt, and hastened her
final answer.
“I see that these suppositions would not please you,” she said, “and
thank you for the fact. Your face is more candid than your speech. I am
now ready to say, Alfred Barton,--because I am sure the knowledge will
be agreeable to you,--that no lands, no money, no command of my father,
no degree of want, or misery, or disgrace, could ever make me your
wife!”
She had risen from her chair while speaking, and he also started to
his feet. Her words, though such an astounding relief in one sense, had
nevertheless given him pain; there was a sting in them which cruelly
galled his self-conceit. It was enough to be rejected; she need not have
put an eternal gulf between their natures.
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